#i own so many harley things now. like tshirts and such. my dad had so many.

[orcelito]

Feel like I am absorbing as much as my father after his death as possible. I will carry on his Legacy. I will be the Biker (in time). I am already the weapon collector (though with knives, not guns). I even have accepted owning a minions mug, something I swore would never happen (I hate those fucking things), just bc it makes me think of him.

Maybe he's gone now, but I'm gonna make damn sure to live a continuation of his life... just in my own way, lol

#speculation nation #like how im taking so much of his clothes. im absorbing some of his masculinity too #i own so many harley things now. like tshirts and such. my dad had so many. #and. well. i did end up deciding to take his little revolver. though that's with more of a grave observance than anything else. #guns are. scary. and i think it's ludicrous that i dont even need a permit to own a gun here #but it's my dad's. and at least a revolver is less scary than like. a pistol. #less easy to accidentally go off. u gotta pull back the hammer every shot and everything. #guns are scary and i dont like them. but it was my dad's. a pretty big part of his life. #i was raised being taught basic gun safety rules. brought to a shooting range at 9 years old #i couldnt even hold up the rifle i was so small. #never went since then bc i didnt care for it. but it's still... something so intrinsic to him in my mind. #so in this Too. i will be continuing his legacy. at least a little bit. #we r gonna be selling most of his guns. but not that one. #it's so tiny. it fits so well in my little hands. i kind of love it almost as much as i fear it. #oh well. i'll be careful. i was taught to never forget the danger a gun can be. #a part of me also is like 'omg a revolver. like what vash uses!' which ok maybe that's part of why i went to the revolver too #though the primary reasons are. it's a Tiny piece. and also itd be Really difficult to accidentally shoot it. #bc u gotta full on cock it back And pull the trigger. that aint gonna happen by accident. #but yeah not to be Stereotypical American but yea guns sure do exist here #and it's in my family too. i want the gun to remember him by. even if i dont ever end up using it. #(tho ive contemplated taking it to a range at least once just to get a feel for actually shooting it #Just In Case i ever end up needing to use it for like. home invasion self defense or smth #which is. another Smaller reason for me to have it. things to think about.)