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kartoffelblume · 4 years

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It calls me on and on across the universe

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Robbe is lying on his bed upside down, legs up the wall and head where his feet belong. He thinks about Sander. And how he fucked up every good thing that happened to him. Not just the wonderful friendship he had with Sander he destroyed by falling for him, also his friendship with the broerrs who he had to yell at yesterday.

He gets out the note again he found earlier today, it's the first time Sander didn't send him a drawing but a plain text instead.

'I'd rather have you just for a short time than not at all'

It would be so easy to just give up and run back, get back to Sander and be happy. But Robbe also knows once he does this, how should he ever stop? How should he decide when it's the right time to not visit Sander anymore. He doesn't trust himself to be strong enough to do this. So he just stays here.

In that moment he hears noises downstairs, his mom is back from work. So he quickly gets down to greet her.

"Hey honey - how was your day?" she asks as soon as she sees him, and when he doesn't instantly answer, not sure how he could answer that without mentioning what happened with Sander or his fight with the broerrs, she adds

"Is everything all right?"

Robbe already wants to nod, tell her everything is perfectly fine but he knows it isn't. And he really needs someone to talk about this. Maybe not why he won't go back to Sander but at least some if it. So he shakes his head. If he tried to say a word he'd probably start crying so he keeps quiet.

"Oh what is it?" She asks, but the notices they are still in the hallway "Lets sit down in the living room"

Robbe follows after her to their living room couch quickly thinking about what he wants to tell her and notices he really wants to tell her a lot. So he starts, once they sit down.

"There is something I should tell you..." He starts, not sure how to formulate it.

She nods so he carries on.

"Remember that guy in the mirror I told you about?"

"You said that you think the mirror is linked to someone and that he's not a version of you in this universe."

Robbe takes a deep breath, tries to calm himself down. It's not easy but he has to tell her sooner or later and not talking about it will only make it harder.

"Ikindafellinlovewithhim"

It's out. Maybe not that nicely but it's finally out.

"I'm sorry what did you say?"

Robbe knows he just talked too fast but his heart still beats so loud he can feel it in his neck.

"I said I kinda fellinlovewithhim."

A little better at least.

"Oh honey but that's beautiful. I was wondering what-"

"So it's not a problem?" Robbe asks, confused "That it's a guy I mean"

She smiles softly and shakes her head "Not at all honey. I love you the same no matter what, I thought you knew that!"

She wraps him in a big hug, but once she pulls away again she has another question on her lips.

"So... Was I not supposed to know that?"

"To know what?"

"That you're into guys"

Robbe never named it that explicitly so he almost flinshes but then has to ask on.

"Wait, you knew already?"

When his mom nods he adds. "Because you know me so well or..?"

"That as well but, all the other Robbes are gay. Well Cris is bi and Lukas and Shay aren't out yet at all but I just assumed..."

"You know their names?"

He knew that his mom has some information they never talked about - but that she knows that much just never occurred to Robbe.

"Of course honey, you are the most important thing for me and I don't think it's that different for the other mes, so of course I know how their children are called."

That makes sense.

"And you know they all have this one partner, that just comes along and makes them happy. Do you know if your boy is that for you? Does he make you happy? Tell me about him. Wait, what is his name?"

Robbe has to smile at the flood of questions but then starts to answer them.

"His name is Sander. He's an art student, at the school that belongs to the empty classroom I keep seeing. And he wanted to draw me for a project."

"Oh that is so cute! Do you have a drawing?"

Robbe nods "Wait a moment". He quickly runs upstairs to get the notes he keeps in his desk drawer.

Once he's back he hands the first one to his mom, it's the drawing of Robbe in front of the skylight.

"Wow he draws reaally pretty!" His mom looks at the drawing like she's just a moment away of framing it to hang it in the living room so he quickly gets it back.

"Did you know that they all get with artists?" His mom asks.

"The Isaks?" He asks and she smiles

"I call them the Robbes but yes. Isak was the first one to get a boyfriend." Robbe can confirm that, the blond boy had suddenly some giant standing next to him in the mirror one morning and Robbe knew that he was not just another friend.

"They all find this one person that draws them little doodles and makes them smile. Do you think that's Sander for you?"

It's a heavy question and Robbe would love nothing more than to nod - to have Sander be his soulmate, the one person he meets over and over in every universe. But it can't be true. Because they don't live in the same universe.

"But how could he if he lives in another universe mom." Robbe shakes his head "But could you tell me more about the Isaks?"

His mom seems to sense that he would prefer not to talk about Sander anymore so she tells him different stories about the Isaks. Tells him a little about their childhood, their friends that all sound a little like Jens. They even all have a Jana.

So he listens, listens to their different hobbies and personalities and friend groups until he has to go and do his homework, having heard enough information for a day.

He hugs his mom a second time before he leaves.

"Whats that for?" She asks surprised but Robbe just smiles

"Thank you mom"

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