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no25 · 5 years

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redoing a survey i took 4 years a go!!1! :~)

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

ya because i have asthma so fuck dat // yes

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

all of the above loooooool // taken uwu

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?

i’d say thank you, you are too // same answer!!!!

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

probably // not that i know of

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?

nah // yes uwu

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?

nothing. sleeping in on monday pretty much // nothing....

7: Do you want to be single?

i dont mind // not rn bc i am happy in my relationship atm!

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?

i went out and i had jollibee // i stayed in but i wish i went out...!

9: How late did you stay up last night?

til like 1 or 2 i think doing fuckin nothing lol // i dont remember but it was late!!

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?

junior year??? and RIGHT NOW ???????? LMAO!!! // yes (: rn!

11: Last three things you had to drink?

breakfast, lunch, and dinner: mocha cappucino, sprite, and water // water, strawberry lemonade, baja blast !

12: Have you pretended to like someone?

ya man i’m fake af lol // yes

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?

ya man i’m fake af lol // not sure, but maybe...

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

my mom probably // my bf tony omg the answer difference

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?

depends but not rly bc i’m fake af lol // idk wtf i was talkin bout but in terms of platonic relationships, it rly depends on my closeness with the person! and i’ve never been thru a breakup so i cant say anything...

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

ya what was that like august? been single since i was born tbh // no uwu

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?

getting ready to shower // i was still in bed lol!!

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?

trisha but she was only holding on to my pinky // tony!

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?

no bc it is too late for me // same answer lol

20: What would you name your future daughter?

clara after the singer or adora after that prodigy // who the hell was i talkin about... okay just googled who adora svitak was (the prodigy i was talking about) and sis was born in 97... i too was born in 97....damn i was mute for like half my life and sis was in a TED TALK at 12 so thats cool... anyway i want to name my daughter after my mom!

21: Do you miss anyone?

not really. just one person // yes :(

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?

yea but they were just quick pecks on the cheek // yes

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

no it took place while i was sitting down in a chair and it was from my pops on my forehead // i do not remember actually LOL

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

ya bc i’m fake af lol… just kidding my friends say i make shit hella obvious sometimes guess i’m not as good of an actress as i thought i was // hmm no but i wish i was... but i’m a PISCES i ABSORB EVERY EMOTION AND IT SHOWS

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?

fffuuuuuuck yyyeeaaaa // yes :(

26: Who did you last see in person?

my parents? what you tryna ask here // i dont rly understand the contxt of this question, im just gona say my roommates bc theyre in the room with me

27: Are you listening to music right now?

yes chandelier by sia // no i’m listening to an asmr video!

28: What is something you currently want right now?

to finish my hw but that’s not happening anytime soon bc f society // i was sooo angsty back then omg lol but i want new makeup, clothes, and accessories!

29: What is the last thing you said out lot?

this question because i read it out loud bc of the typo // hmmm i don’t remember! i think it was... can u wash my fork

30: How is your heart lately?

heavy // empty (: damn i’ve been depressed my whOLE LIFE huh

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?

yes because my head gets cold // sometimes!

32: Are you wearing socks?

yes and they’re grey / not rn

33: What do people call you?

chacha or princess sometimes but not really mostly just charlene // charlene, char! not rly chacha anymore! i miss being called chacha! but ppl who arent that close to me started calling me it so its weird! but it might b my fault for pushing the nickname... but i mean nicknames are only a given IF ur close with that person right... so idk why ppl thought itd b ok right away! like cmon ppl!

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

maybe~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~but if i do i’ll feel like i’m bothering him lol / maybe ! but it’s ok if we dont

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?

you think this a joke ofc there are wtf!!!! // yes.. same answer LOL

36: Who did you last share a bed with?

my mommy // tony

37: Did you do something bad today?

procrastinate)))))): // same answer, add two shots of ~hate myself~ in there too

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?

like two days ago? is that sad / today!

39: Do you get stressed out easily?

ya but it’s my own fault i’m hella dumb but in the end i’m just like oh well ALOT which is actually not healthy at all / yes! it fries my brain and i become numb to it lol

40: Will you sing today?

i sing everyday // i hope!

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

yes because i am so bad at talking / same answer!

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

kaithleen and i like talking to megs but when i do tell people stuff i feel like i am giving them more stuff to worry about so i usually end up not going to them at all lol / tony or my vocaloid sisters groupchat!

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

no; thanks jesus / no

44: What are you listening to right now?

we could happen by aj rafael / same asmr video!

45: What is wrong with you right now?

a lot of things / i need to find new ways of unlearning the harmful coping mechanisms and negativity i’ve internalized, but i know it takes a lot of work for self improvement, so i think it’s easier to just be sad :(

46: What is on your wrists right now?

my sleeves and my veins / wtf angsty bitch lmao NOTHING is on my wrist lol chill

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?

t’s a house find and it says tiburon and conference center lodge so ig uess it’s from there / it’s a free shirt from a programming company! or gaming i cant remember....

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

hot chocolate wtf is hot apple cider i never tried it / hot chocolate!

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?

i used to / aww same answer, maybe i should start again! but i always lose track of time...

50: Are you a good artist?

fuck yeah. sike i’m a disgrace / no :(

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?

ew / yes!!!!!!

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?

who do you think i am do you think people like counting the months backwards? anyway idk i didn;t do shit in july / yes bc i would b at home with my cat!!!!!!!

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

no / not while it was moving!

54: Do you have trust issues?

ya bc i’m fake af lol / yes :(

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

tony or kaithleen kinda but she always falls asleep / tony!

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?

yea think so from my middle school days but the only thing i can rly think of is this pikachu shirt / yes!!! that pikachu shirt, a goofy movie shirt, and a spirited away shirt!

57: Do you use chap stick?

i used to / not the brand chapstick but yes! i think my lips have become too dependent on it tho bc they dry out or sunburn easily if i dont use it for a while or if its a rly sunny hot day!!

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?

yes probably but on accident pretty sure i’d remember it clearly if it was on purpose / not that i know of!

59: Do you have a little sister?

no but if i consider my friends as little sisters i’d have like seven or soemthing / no!

60: Have you ever been to New York?

no but i would love to go / not yet!

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

yes and i love them too / same answer !!!!

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?

ya and it was the opposite sex dude you asked about earlier / yes!

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?

talkin to the late night people you asked about earlier / on my laptop watching asmr videos lol!!

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

no / yes 😥

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

ya like 10 / i cant believe i counted... but yes!

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?

no / yes, tony!

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?

i actually don;t remember oops sorry mom give me up for adoption / yes, tony!

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

i am okay with both but i have to be close to you first to face you if we sleepin on the same bed lol / im fine with either !

69: Will next Friday be a good one?

i dont think so. everyday feels the same and i am bored all the time / im gona speak it into existence, YES!!!!

#personal #survey #enough about me has changed....#nostalgia is a LIAIR

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ramonasflowers13-blog · 7 years

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1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. Who even remembers that? I remember watching chucky or some scary movie when I was really young tho. 2: Talk about your first kiss. It was during the summer. I think I was 14. I was over romans house with a bunch of my friends and we were watching wax museum I believe and he pulled the covers over us and kissed me. I didn't even kiss him back lol 3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. He broke my heart. He left me in the worst way. With no words, no explanation, no closure. I'll always love him though. If he came back, I'd probably let him back in. I don't want to though. I doubt he will. 4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far. Getting involved with David. Catching a felony. 5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. I've never had a good memorable birthday. For my 19th I got really drunk and went to see a movie and fell asleep thru the whole thing and ended up throwing up crackers on the floor n fell asleep. Lol 6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. They all sucked. None in particular really stand out. 7: Talk about your biggest insecurity. Probably my face in general. My smile. My crooked teeth. 8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of. I'm not proud of anything. I guess just finishing high school bc I really didn't think I'd make it and maybe making it this far. 9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. My little moles. I have them everywhere 10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. Physical or emotional? I don't ever really argue with anyone. I guess that one time with David when I screamed fuck you and he was like fuck you too and told me to get out of his house but wanted to block doors and shit. Oh maybe that one time Chelsea got drunk and hit me and tori left her at a gas station in Oklahoma. 11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I can never remember my dreams. None of them are ever that nice just fucking weird. 12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. Trump trying to have a 3some with me and hitler and when he got mad he turned into a really tall black woman and busted down the door to get to me. I had a dream about a bus full of kids getting shot up. 13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. I was high. Wasn't that good. It was with my first love. It was after some teen club. I was 14. 14: Talk about a vacation. I don't think I've ever been on vacation. But I did go to Florida for my half brothers wedding once and I was on the beach. 15: Talk about the time you were most content in life. Anytime before I was 12 16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. I don't go to many parties. None of them are really eventful. I usually never wanna be there in the first place besides to get drunk. 17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with. No one comes to mind. 18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I was "dating" roman in like 4th grade? Or 3rd and he would leave me money in my locker sometimes like 20$ and I was joking and said I'm a gold digger and my bitch ass little friends went and told him and he broke up with me and my friends were going back and forth on the soccer field saying "oh she said this!" And "he said that!" And he told me to suck his dick and I told him to suck his own dick and we somehow ended up getting in trouble and we got Saturday detention and they really had the nerve to sit us at the same table across from each other LOL 19: Talk about something that happened in middle school. I had a few good friends. Alex. Bailey. Angel. Roxiee. And everyone else I don't even talk to anymore. I miss them. 20: Talk about something that happened in high school. I isolated myself from everyone. I didn't have many friends. I didn't bother to speak to anyone or get to know anyone. I spent most of my time in the library reading or doing homework so I didn't have to do it at home. I met a guy named Evan in my fashion design class. He was one of the only guys in the class and he was really cool. He smoked and lived fairly close so we started hanging out. We were drinking and he asked me out and I didn't really wanna say yes but I can't reject someone to their face in their own house. So yeah. I don't really remember how we broke up. He said he liked my hair or something n I said that's gay and I think it pissed him off. lol I think that's why we broke up TBH but my memory is shit 21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I never usually do. Idk. No one ever really pursues me. I guess Luis. I keep telling him to fuck off every time he tries to talk to me. It's been like 2 or 3 years now. Idk how I'm still a thought in his mind. 22: Talk about your worst fear. My worst fears have already manifested. Being utterly alone. Having no one understand me. Catching on fire. Dying in a plane crash. Dying a slow painful death. I plan on od'ing so I just realized I should just get barred out then od so I don't have to remember anything and everything will slowly just fade away. I'm hoping. 23: Talk about a time someone turned you down. All my relationships. I never am the one to walk away. People always end up leaving me. But I mean, no ones ever really rejected me I don't think. I don't pursue people that aren't at least semi interested in me 24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Idk why but when David noticed how I always taste my coffee before I drink it on our way to work. He said something about that and idk why it meant so much to me but I guess just someone paying attention to the little things I didn't think anyone would ever notice. When john told me he was in love with me so casually. It shocked me. I've never had anyone say that to me before. I never got to actually hear it before. 25: Talk about an ex-best friend. Tori is a fucking cunt. She sucks as a person. Rude mean and manipulative. 26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay in bed all day. Bitch and moan about being sick. Hot coffee. Lots of NyQuil. 27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. I really like boys with nice feet. I don't even like feet at all but guys feet rly intrigue me for some reason when they're pretty LOL. Hands. The veiny arms. The muscles. Eyes. 28: Talk about your fetishes. Hair pulling. Slapping. Spitting. Bondage is cool. CHOKING! 29: Talk about what turns you on. All those ^ and neck kisses. Hickies. So ugly but I love how they feel. Gettin my titties succccdt 30: Talk about what turns you off. Long fingernails. 31: Talk about what you think death is like. I have a couple theories. 1. Eternal sleep. A dreamlike state. Does consciousness die when your body dies? If not, I feel like you'd just keep dreaming for eternity. Maybe that's what this life is. My past life's never ending dream. 2. Darkness. Black. Nothingness. The void. 3. Reincarnation. You are reborn into this world or perhaps a different universe. I'm not sure but either one of those would be okay with me. Oh, maybe a heaven type place for your soul. Maybe only in death you can reach enlightenment and pure bliss. 32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. The big orange trailer on the end of morning street. The lake/pond thing by it. My cousins house. 33: Talk about what you do when you are sad. Listen to sad music. Shitpost on social media about my inevitable suicide. I don't necessarily want attention. Idk why I do it. I just don't have anyone else to really talk to I guess. So why not let the whole twitter n tumblr world know how I feel. 34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. When I would wake up in the middle of the night with a pain in my stomach. Laying down only made it worse. Emotional pain that turns into physical pain and you can literally feel an ache in your chest. 35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Depending on people. Planning my suicide. Wanting to kill myself anytime something goes wrong. Not being able to say how I feel when I should. Not being able to walk away from people and situations I no longer need to deal with. Not being able to let go. Hating myself. Blaming myself for other people's actions. Blaming myself for things out of my control. Inappropriate humor that most people don't think is funny but I just really hate everything and give no fucks. 36: Talk about your guilty pleasures. I never know. Coffee I suppose bc it makes my anxiety a lot worse. Cigarettes. I smoke them when I'm stressed or just when I'm bored bc it gives me something to do. Provoking people to hurt me bc I like emotional pain. I guess I don't like it but I thrive on it. I need it to survive. 37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. He ruined me. That ordeal traumatized me. 38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. From the edge of the deep green sea by the cure reminds me of john. It talks about how she never wants to leave him and how it's the same thing every time. Idk. Reflect the storm by in flames reminds me of David. He showed me it. So I can't help but think of him every time I hear it. 39: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. He didn't love me. Everything he said was a lie. 40: Talk about the end of something in your life. This relationship. My life will end soon as well.

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