#i stopped at 16 in the msa fandom because the people there were fucking diabolical abusive racist assholes

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i wish we collectively could have an honest, open discussion about how unfriendly rp spaces still are to people of colour even if they are lead by people of colour, or well-meaning whites.

like, idk, there's still like antiblack events/scenes/dialogues that take place or biases towards white/white passing characters. this doesn' even begin to cover the cliquey nature of rp spaces as is and again, how biased people are and can be even if they claim otherwise. you could have the most open, friendliest space in the world, sure, but even then, they'd still be guilty of at least either: petty gossip or snobbish rpers who think they and the characters they portray (original or canon) are better than you and yours, or hell, just cliquey, exclusionary behaviour.

also, too, usually (i've experienced this myself a lot), if you're a person of colour in an rp space, 9/10 people who are not the same race as you will do just about anything to get your approval with portrayals/creations of characters solely to appease you and not because they have a desire to branch out or challenge themselves to make a character or portray a character that's nothing like them.

#ducky.txt #i don't like rp as much anymore and i still maintain that i was right to leave the space when i was a teenager #because like imo nothing has changed #it just genuinely hasn't #in my experience in the last what? fucking... 3-4 years? it hasn't changed #and i'd been rping since i was 10 on warrior cats forums/rp sites #i stopped at 16 in the msa fandom because the people there were fucking diabolical abusive racist assholes #like. ough / neg #honestly laughs i don't? rp at all anymore to be quite frank #i just headcanon with like holo carlton and randy if im lucky #because like. getting back into the rp space is just not something im sure i can handle anymore and its a hobby that's brought me nothing #but misery most of my life #and usually a lot of rpers make this their sole hobby which also just causes tons of issues if they get crazy about it which they do #literally it's just always been this way! as much as i love oc interactions im not sure i have the heart for it anymore. #been let down and hurt too many times!