#i think it made my parasocial relationship with taylor a lot healthier too

[godofsmallthings]

hi, relatively new follower but not completely new and just wanted to say i think it's pretty brave what you're doing regarding recovering gaylor lol not to make it Too Deep or anything but like the internet can be scary and people can be mean esp when leaving such a group mentality thing like gaylor stuff (been there too) and yea that's all! good luck and godspeed with your journey i hope you're still enjoying things and having fun here as much as you can!!

thank you bestie this is so sweet 💗 it frankly did take several years and a lot of growth and just a lot of thinking and analyzing and actively restructuring how i thought about fandom to get to this point, but i can wholeheartedly say that the past six months especially have been the most fulfilling time i've had in this fandom (at least since before i was on social media and my swiftieism just manifested in watching interviews every day). i'm certain i still have tons more to learn and i will change my mind a million more times, but i overall i feel a lot more happy and chill this way

#but also i think a lot of that comes from just like...not being stuck in the house unable to see friends bc of pandemic anymore lmao #midnights release was just so fucking fun for me bc for the first time i got to experience a new album #without immediately trying to fit it into this incredibly rigid narrative i had decided was true #i think it made my parasocial relationship with taylor a lot healthier too #she just feels a lot more human to me now idk #but yeah i love knowing there are other ppl in this weird in between space <3 #and i appreciate you acknowledging how insane fandom can be about this sort of thing #because it like wasn't that deep but it also 100% was that deep to me #it was going back on something that had been a core part of my identity since i was 13 #and admitting that i was wrong. which is hard in any circumstance #thankfully i have barely gotten any anon hate about it which i am very thankful for #but im trying to just be less argumentative on here as a whole so im sure that helps #ask