#i try to pretend autism is a silly disorder instead of a developemental one

[conanssummerchild]

i like to pretend that im autistic in a way that doesnt affect my life, then when it does that thing where it, yk, affects my life i cant ask for help bcs im too embarrased

#oh the horrors #of being percieved #ive tried so hard my whole life to make my brain work neurotypically #ive pretended so much that i cant be bothered to do something instead of admitting i cant #and i dont know what to do now #i try to pretend autism is a silly disorder instead of a developemental one #and its not true #but i cant admit that to anyone #because i dont want to admit that i cant do everything just as good as everyone else #and now im gonna flunk my maths assesment #which is literally the only one that matters #fun shit #alex says shit #alex shouts into the void #alex's autism #alex is an idiot #the biggest idiot to ever exist