#i used to tell everyone who would listen about the gore vidal thing kehskwhskwhdjwhs

[karinyosa]

listen i can’t prove that asp bloggers by and large seem to know brinker was based on gore vidal now because of me but brother i will say it was not like that back when there were like 4 asp blogs and all the fanart was anime

#you may be thinking. well there are basically 4 asp blogs now #THINK AGAIN!!!! it used to be so much worse. #it feels like there are more people consistently posting about it now #and a lot more art (MUTUALS!!! <33) #like there was an art DROUGHT #it used to be that every time you looked at the tag the same posts would be up at the top and like #it’s still sorta like that but allllll the posts i could never escape have been buried into obscurity #because there’s so much new stuff #i used to be like haha there are 5 people in this fandom or whatever #BUT THAT NO LONGER FEELS TRUE #i used to tell everyone who would listen about the gore vidal thing kehskwhskwhdjwhs #it was such a novelty to me at the time i read asp that queercoding could be so like. complete or comprehensive and also supported by #like authors and academic institutions and most importantly a tumblr fandom sksjsk #so an openly queer man being associated w my fav book whose gayness i was mentally going to bat for was craaaazzzyyy to my #middle school brain #even though i didn’t really know anything about him except for a few anecdotes at the time. brother. how things have changed #oh my god and the fact that there is/was an asp gimmick blog??? asp-quotes??? my god middle school me would’ve died #im still writing the same fucking fanfic that ms me daydreamed about finishing though. god #anyway hopefully this post isn’t. ANNNOYIINNGGG but it’s crazy to see things change like that from so close a perspective #like the smallness of the asp online community makes it easy to tell for some of these things #i draw a line directly between my younger asp mutuals constantly posting art to the influx of other asp content #in my memory one followed the other #fucking anyway. write a memoir dipshit #me.txt #a separate peace #if it is because of me that’s very funnyynbgncb #OH AND IT’S IN POLLS NOW TOO #crazy