#i want to be them. whether i want to be really rwally really good friends w them and just stay friends

[immamapletreekid]

why tf are feelings so hard to understand i can't be having another quarter life crisis right now

#how to tell whether the feeling is thinking someone is really cool and wanting to become really really close friends w them #or whether its.dare i say. romantic in naturejsjfjdkfhsbxnsjz #my brain is too tiny too small to think about this its already using 120 percent of its power to do math homework #i dont know why im talking about romance when i have virtually zero interest in it currently. for my own life #i will consume cute shoujo manga tho. for mental health reasons #but they really. really. really do not make shoujo manga like they used to ;((( #now i say i have no interet but i must say some things are making me start to doubt this. belief that ive been forcing down my own throat #all im saying is there are. cool people in my faculty. who are really smart really cool really capable yet endearing and funny and #im goijg to rewatch the same three bsd episodes i always rewatch and calm tf down #on a completely unrelated note ive finally. FINALLY FOUND WHETE ALL THE REALLY COOL PRETTY SMARTLY COOLY FASHIONABLY DRESSED PPL HANG OUT #ITS THE FUKCING. SCIENCE TEDHCING BUILDING WHERE THE SOFTWARE KIDS APPARENTLY LIVE IN #walked there w friends bc we were scouting out where our calc midterm js gonna be held ahead of time. and lemme just say #some of those ppl rrally. really knew how to take full advantage of the fall fashion season #love the cold weather..csn wear all my sweaters and large cardigans and blouses w turtlenecks underneath #fuzzy socks and chonky boots and warm fluffy coats w cute buttons and accessories AAAAAAAA #i always somehow go from one topic to another completely unrelayed one in the span of 30 tags hhdjfnkdbskd #ok original thought was. there are some reslly cool people in math and cs. and i am not sure whether #i want to be them. whether i want to be really rwally really good friends w them and just stay friends #or the forbidden third flavour of YEARNING #signing out now gnnnnight #rambling about stuff #when they say see you around instead of just see you like they always do when u two part after class #and u proceed to overhink and overanalyze every single little interaction youve had over the last 48 hours