#i wont show you guys anything unless its appealing. And combining those two..li just dont make anything anymore

[flamboyant-king]

I’ve been hearing different kinds of art advice and I’m torn on them.

Should you go through and finish something even though it doesn’t look good and is flawed in many ways OR scrap the piece and do it a different way/abandon the idea altogether?

#im a person who doesnt want to waste resources. If im unsure of the outcome then i dont do it #i dont know how to sew or bake because i dont want to waste fabric or ingredients on a fuck up #but i want to have fun DOING SOMETHING. Like haha baking cupcakes would be fun haha oh no its burnt #i havent gone through with ANY STORY IDEA ive had because i dont know how it willbegin all the way to the end #and im hearing advice like make that shitty make that shitty game but i cant bring myself to even start it #like i CANT make things without a purpose. If i dont have the finished product in mind #im too afraid to mess up im too afraid to fail #but like doing nothing is worse than failing no? #the other advice i saw was just leaving things as sketches. Not everything needs to be finished and not everything needs to be seen #and thats another issue i have. Not only will i not do things unless i know the productis good #i wont show you guys anything unless its appealing. And combining those two..li just dont make anything anymore #like…i cant take either advice because of how embarassed ashamed and afraid of failure i am #i want to let loose. I want to be free. I want to create nonsense from the heart rather than thinking everything through and through #every meticulous detail. Every sketch upon sketch upon sketchto deliver on something no one will see #i get that. I get that im not hot shit. Im not big or important. I have nothing left to bring to the table and #i guess knowing that stops me from doing anything because i think that the only thing im allowed/forced to do is make things worthy #i dont display my art in my room anymore. I dont doodle random things anymore. I open commissions because my drawings need a purpose #and thats stupid because im nobody. I have no purpose. My purpose is just to enjoy life. And being like THIS isnt enjoying life #its not even drawing its just anything. Socializing being with friends or family. Watching movies or playing games #i cant enjoy myself. Because i dont know how its going to GO. Thats not living. Life isnt fucking planned. Its spontaneous #but i cant DO that. And I dont know how to fix it. #but thats enough about me. What advice to you go by? Just going with it or redoing it?