#i’m crying a bit rn ngl because i’ve been so stressed about this 😭

[cowlovely]

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#ivy.txt #personal stuff in the tags (not vent technically! positive vent?) #i think my mom has really gotten better in regards to mental health/disability shit? #and i’m honestly very pleasantly surprised #like. last week she and i got into kind of an argument #where she was asking me if i want a job in the future/when i think that might happen etc #and i was like well. i mean technically no i don’t WANT a job that’s actually the last thing i want #but if that’s the requirement for living at home then i will get a job eventually yeah. with therapy i will get to that point eventually #and she got. idk flustered i guess? like i think she interpreted that as me being like antagonistic towards her? i’m not sure #and she basically just lectured me for a few minutes until i got upset and left #i thought we were kind of just going to ignore it until we inevitably had the same argument months down the line #but earlier tonight she actually apologized to me? #she was like ‘your mental health is always my number one priority #and i don’t want you to feel like i’m pushing you into things when you’re not ready—if you ever even are ready! #i don’t know that you’re ever going to have a typical job and that’s okay. you’re fine where you are. #and i know sometimes i fall into the trap of what society expects of you and of me as a parent #but i don’t need to pass that onto you. i know you’re dealing with enough as it is and that isn’t fair.’ #that wasn’t even all of it but that’s like. practically verbatim?? and idk i’m just shocked like. #i’m crying a bit rn ngl because i’ve been so stressed about this 😭 #uh. this week she and my dad also finally accepted that i’m autistic (and that my dad is also autistic) so i am! overwhelmed!