#i'd read while walking home from school (the one kind of multitasking i ever mastered; i wonder if i could still do it)

[nellasbookplanet]

A fun side effect of me starting up drafts of my book rec posts (I currently have 10 drafts. Normally my drafts folder is empty. Its current state is giving me nervous twitches) is that I'm feeling a sudden urge to read a bunch of books that’s been on my tbr for literal years so I can ascertain whether or not to include them as recs. I so rarely have the urge to pick up physical books or ebooks these days, 99 percent of what I 'read' is audiobooks. My brain doesn’t have space and focus to just Sit And Read anymore. I get bored. I get distracted. A single book takes me months to finish and a lot of time I don’t finish it at all even if I'm enjoying it because my attention wanders to other things and before I know it I haven’t read for weeks and at this point I might as well put the book back in the shelf. And I've just gotten kind of desillusioned about reading, and often straight up force myself to do it because I Like This Dammit. Man I miss being a teenager devouring multiple books a week without issue.

But I'm feeling a bit of a spark at the moment! I've almost finished Octavia Butler's Dawn (it’s definitely going on the alien rec list) and it’s so good! I'm frantically trying to decide what to pick up next so I don’t overwhelm myself by Not Chosing and just trying to read five books at once. Let's see how long I can ride this high.

#it probably helps that my uni semester is over and I've finished several freelance deadlines #so i don’t have to spend as much of my limited reading focus on academic papers and proof reading #but yeah. i really miss the way i used to be absolutely absorbed while reading as a kid/teen #i'd read while walking home from school (the one kind of multitasking i ever mastered; i wonder if i could still do it) #when i was really little i used to hide under a kitchen shelf at home or under the stairs at school so i could read undisturbed #one book once got me so obsessed that i brought it with me into the stable #in case i could sneak some reading time between caring for the animals #i miss that feeling #wonder if losing it is part of growing up and getting different priorities or if part of me got a bit burned out #anyway. thank god for audiobooks #the only thing that still allows me to get through a frankly obscene amount of books #rambles #(next rec post is going to be scifi worldbuilding btw. it'll probably be up either this weekend or sometime next week)