#i'm WAY behind on comment replies on ao3 because of The Problems but im gonna get to 'em. in the meantime. i love u.

[crimeronan]

every time i get an ao3 comment on a horror fic along the lines of “jesus fucking christ. this is so vile what the FUCK what the FUCKING FUCK THIS IS SO FUCKED UP” i hug my laptop to my chest and kick my feet and roll around in bed giggling like a schoolgirl who just got a love letter from her crush. omg you got physically nauseous.....? eeee

#THESE SENTIMENTS KEEP ME GOING #'cause i already know i'm funny and good at capturing Big Feelings #and i love comments about how much various funny or silly or earnest stories mean to people #but ooh god i've been repressing a lot of Horror Shit for a long time. #bc it's ugly and gross and makes people feel bad who wants to read THAT #and have only pretty recently started to shed these feelings n been like. nah i'll be honest actually #like i'll tag everything appropriately and i'll accept that engagement will b a lot lower bc no one wants to read That Shit #but i'll be honest. #so it's like. the strangest form of validation to have people be like #yeah actually this is fucking horrible and DOES feel bad and you DID convey that effectively #i'm like. thank u so much!! i wasn't sure i had the skill or the practice to do that!!!! #if youve left one of these comments (or MULTIPLE comments) on my stuff in the past few days pls know i see you and i love you #i'm WAY behind on comment replies on ao3 because of The Problems but im gonna get to 'em. in the meantime. i love u. #autoimmune tag #<-since the feelings mostly. come from this