#i'm at a finnjamboree

[ilottcallum]

ok i literally don't have any clue whats happening in hockeyblr or f1blr right now since i haven't had proper internet since thursday but i'll just come here and drop this one post abt my life in the tags enjoy:

#ok so #i'm at a finnjamboree #which is a massive scout camp/gathering in finland #thats like 8 days and we have 13.5k ppl here #most are finns but there is some foreigners too #and #we do all kinds of activities in groups of 8 or less #and in my group there is my friends and then 4 others #and like. so many memories. so many #late night conversations in the wc line with hat man? hell ye #hat man is the nickname of one of the guys cos he wears a cowboy hat as ajoke lmao #swapping bandanas to enamel pins and patches from canadian scouts? yeah #being chaotic together in the activities? oh my fucking god yes #i love this hobby #ive been a scout since i was 7yo and this year im 16 #its just me being emotional about my hobbies dont mind me #random ramblings

[ilottcallum]

so um

#me n my crush/friend were talking again yesterday like we usually do #and i am aware of the fact that he apparently has a gf #the same girl who he had something going on with at the finnjamboree a month ago #but then we were talking about how some of our friends had rather interesting relationships there #and i joked about me not having anything going on with anyone #and then he said something that he did have a crush on me at the camp but he didn't think i'd like him even as a friend??? #like. that i'd think that he's weird or somethig #but i never thought that i just have social anxiety #and now i'm like. he did like me. but he has a gf now. #of course i'm not going to.. do anything?? cos he is in a relationship #but i have a lot of thoughts and feelings going on #hrhsgshdh #random ramblings

[ilottcallum]

me and my crush using the <3 heart when we are having a late night convo? more likely than u think

#I- #HE- #um #we did have a deep late night conversation about our past problems and mental health stuff #and after that i told him hes like the nicest of the ppl i got to know at the finnjamboree #and then we talked about something for a bit #and then he said that he has to go to sleep since his alarm is at 7.25 in the morning #its now 2am #and then i was like 'oh god go to sleep im so sorry for keeping u awake' #and he went 'no worries <3 i like to stay awake with u' #I AM SCREAMING WHAT IS THIS #KDHDHDJEJFH #my followers i'm so sorry for talking about my crush the whole time #but this is the first time i ever talk to any of my crushes properly #i mean yeah he is my friend but still #random ramblings