#i've had actually blood pouring out from my ears and still been told i'm exaggerating

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It's 6:30 and I haven't slept at all, from what I recall, I've almost been awake for 24 hours. I can't keep doing this (have been like this for years) I need to see a doctor about my unhealthy sleeping at some point lmao (will not see a doctor)

#my new main doc is so sexist i cba with him #debating taking me off anti depressents because he believes i'm just an emotional woman #jokes on him I stopped taking them because they made me sick #he also didnt wanna diagnose me with BDD until my 'husband' verifed it #sure lemme just ask the non existing husband of mine to ask him to tell you i see myself warped #it's on my record i'm single btw meaning he just thinks I should be married #so if I go to him saying i have insomia he'll start claiming it's because i'm a girl #oh when i told him i'm not married he asked if he could speak to my dad #good luck!!!! my dad talks to nobody he's worst than me in social situations #sky rambles ♡ #never forget the time I had an earache and a nurse asked me i was on my period and thats why I was crying #honestly fucking killing myself at this point man can't do shit #i've had bad ear pains since birth 😭 you can't make this shit up #i've had actually blood pouring out from my ears and still been told i'm exaggerating #can't wait to drop dead and i'll still be declared as alive because i'm a silly woman who is over the top #am I emotional??? yes #is that the cause of all my mental issues? i don't think so I think that's more physical verbal emotional and mental abuse but go off #i really REALLY shoukd be medicated but the sickness and weight gain which wouldnt go away was too much