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laikuh · 3 years

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put a ring on it rambles below the cut.

im thinking this is going to be a fic told in parts, like a series, versus one really big fic like bbg. and i just wanted to talk through some of the ideas i have for telling the story, tho of course you're encouraged not to read this if you don't want to know the process and just wanna read the fic when it's out, whenever that may be.

i've already talked about how i feel about the winchesters and familial mouth kissing and i think this is probably the hook of the first fic in the series (working title: "bite"). by which i mean i'm developing some thoughts around goodnight mouth kisses between dean and sam and john and dean (maybe sometimes john and sam, too, if i see sam allowing it through his anger at john, idk) that ultimately become something else with dean and john, paired with the way they share a bed. so this is a fic that establishes that their (all three of them's) lifestyle includes zero boundaries, that dean and john find a weird inappropriate physical comfort in one another, and walks us through how they get together. i imagine this as a more serious mix of angst and fluff, because while i imagine the building of this relationship differently than the building of the relationship in "what do we call," i do still think there would be moments of rethinking what they're doing and rejecting the direction its heading in.

this may also be the fic that deals with john sending dean away sometimes, though i'm still deciding if im sticking to canon that closely or not. part of me wants to, because i like the challenge of it. i like finding a way to make it work (like maybe john sends dean away specifically to get physical distance from the relationship their building that he's not ready to accept). the other part of me says the boys home stuff was obviously not part of the original canon of the show, and maybe this is a story that only imagines spn as existing through season 5. but anyway. that would be the first fic, an examination of how they got together, what makes it hard, what makes it easy, how does the entire family function when boundaries are nonexistent.

then i think there would be at least a second fic, specifically my HOPE CHEST IDEA i have nOT FOROGTTEN IT bc i think it's too fucking good lol idc. this would be established relationship with the thread being dean collecting items for his hope chest. this is probably where the silver ring we see in canon also comes into play. this is domestic fluff with a little badwronggood edge of dean and john really getting a little too intensely serious about dean being his wife. not sure what sam's up to here; this may be the point where sam leaves for stanford. actually, i like that a lot, bc i already wrote the super angsty version of sam leaving for stanford. it'd be interesting to write that same even from the perspective of john and dean already being together and losing as a PAIR their child. this would be a very different scenario than "what do we call" you know? sam leaving could also inform dean's intensity about the hope chest and dean and john's intensity about feeling married, bc there's not even the HINT of a buffer with sam gone. they can get really weird about things, maybe. idk what weird looks like yet lol.

realistically, i think this would be enough, bc the third fic in the series would be what already exists: "tender like a bruise." but if i wanted an additional story, then i think it would be following through with some of what i talked about in this earlier walk through of my idea for this fic. so like, taking us up through, idk. at the very least "in my time of dying" if not a little past that. doing a sort of vignette-y take on dean in the years after john's died, reflecting on their relationship, reflecting on what he has with sam. this seems all sad, even tho i don't mean dean would be suddenly convinced he was abused by john, bc that's honestly not the intention with this fic. things are as consensual and reciprocated as possible, but i just think it'd be interesting to have dean reflect on that once john is dead. when i say sad, i just mean it's sad to think about dean still feeling like he's lost the love of his life, like he really is a widow, and thinking back on that through all these life events john wasn't there for. so i'd have to be mindful of that and creative with ways to make this feel happy or satisfied or content when possible.

lol and my crackfic idea, following this thread, is that post s5, castiel resurrects not just sam, but john. so instead of dean going to lisa, his relationship kicks back up with john, except now he's older and seen some shit, and he and john are truly on equal footing for the first time.

and that's where i'll stop!

#fic rambles #put a ring on it #marriedvibes #thoughts welcomes as always #gotta get as much fleshed out as i can so that when im ready to give it full focus #aka when bbg is done lol #i have a strong starting point #i...love this fandom #i feel so alive lol #not looking forward to going back to work full time at the end of july sigh

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