#idk man. my mum and i spent our whole morning travelling out to some random shop wayyyy out of our way. requires multiple buses to get there

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haha people who have normal relationships with their fathers where they didn’t grow up being constantly made to feel dumb/unimportant/annoying…. what’s that like babes hahaha

#autism doesn’t make you a bad parent. unmanaged/unaddressed autism combined with a general lack of consideration for everyone around you… #now THAT will fuck your kid up. #autistic people often struggle with eye contact. that’s cool no problem i can still engage in conversation like that. #buuut when you’re four and super exited to tell your dad what you did that day and he literally doesn’t acknowledge your presence?? #and it’s that across your entire LIFETIME? your entire childhood and teen years and fuck it even your adult life????? THAT SHIT SUCKS #and THEN the only times you CAN get a conversation out of him it’s an argument where he WILL not stop talking over you #and scoffing at every single word you say #and raising his voice as he tells you how stupid you’re being #ummmmmmmmmm yeeaaahhhh okie dokie. a lifetime of that might ummm… lead to a few issues. #oh wait i forgot the third category of interaction: listening to him complain about something absolutely meaningless. for 20mins. #just killing the mood of any conversation. #you’re watching tv it’s fun everyone’s having fun!! yayyy yippee isn’t this nice #and then someone on tv will say ‘up and down the country’ (goofy but harmless phrase) and suddenly all you can hear is a rant #about the banality of overused idioms and phrases. #LIKE!! can you fucking lighten up for five fucking seconds. please. #idk man. my mum and i spent our whole morning travelling out to some random shop wayyyy out of our way. requires multiple buses to get there #JUST to get him a birthday present. because we thought it was fun and cute and because it’s very personal to him. #like we built our DAY around this. we spent £120 on this. FOR HIM!! because we thought he’d enjoy it!!!! #and we’re spending all day tomorrow wrapping his presents and hand making cards and planning the cake i will be baking for him #and he gets home from work and. IMMEDIATELY starts picking a fight. #like we had a lovely day. we had SUCH a good day. and a lot of it was about doing stuff FOR HIM for HIS BIRTHDAY!!! #which we were HAPPY AND EXITED TO DO!!!!! #and he fucking ruins the whole thing. #now my mum is sleeping on the sofa because she’s so angry at the way he was talking to me and i’m typing this bullshit. #and. he just. he doesn’t care. he doesn’t get it. he literally cannot comprehend why we’re upset at him. #he can’t see anything from anyone else’s perspective. he can’t comprehend the idea that maybe just maybe HE was the one being unkind.