#idk why i said inner bc hes also outer i am a white semiman. semiman... itis mesnt to be prounced semi man (sim i man.. or sem e man if

[nomaishuttle]

the thing abt me is i do hsve goals for therapy snd i do want to delve deep into my psyche but i also never get to talk to ppl irl so when i go in and realize i have a captive audience for the next 50 minutes i just cannot shut up.

#I NEVER CONSIDER MYSELF A CHATTY PERSON BUT THEN I HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO CHAT AND IM LIKE TEEHEE #i think im just selective abt who i talk to bc i truly am quite quiet. oh thats cute quite quiet theyre like sisters or cousins maybe. #but i am rly quite quiet i will legit just stand there like 🕴️and i never initiate conversations #but the second i realize somebody actually wants to listen to me talk isrg i suddenly have to recap everything that has ever happened to me #and my opinions on everything that has existed since the big bang occured #AND I TALK FAST SO I FEEL LIKE THAT KIND OF MAKES PPL NOT WANT TO TALK TO ME. BC YOU GIVE ME AN INCH OF INTEREST oh thats cute inch of #interest thats fun.. bc they sound kind of similar thats awesome. anyway you give me an inch of interest and i will take a mile of.. #monologue ? closest m word related to talking i can think of but it isnt especially close to mile. oh well #but its literally so bad and then ppl dont want to talk to me bc ill talk for 30 minutes straight but the contents of the talk will be 1.5 #hours worth i just talk rly fast and im constantly looping back to things i talked abt before and also leaping to things that are #tangentially related and basicslly . i think i am not very fun to talk to #i also told leslie abt my white man disease of thinking I could totally start a podcast. and she was like well normally i would say i think #they should make microphones cost 5000000 dollars to dissuade people from starting podcasts but i think i would enjoy listening to yours #which is tempting fate. i will not start a podcast #but also if i did she would hypothetically like it.. idt she so #would actually lisren bc i think thats kinda likee. yk its oversrepping the therapy boundary #it would not be an issue to me but i have heard that like. if a therapist hss a yter as a client they shouldnt watch that yters videos yk. #sooo unfortunately she wouldnt actually listento the podcast but yk. BUT I SHOULDNT MAKE A PODCAST IT IS MY INNER WHITE MAN SPEAKING. #idk why i said inner bc hes also outer i am a white semiman. semiman... itis mesnt to be prounced semi man (sim i man.. or sem e man if #you prefer.) but its also fun to read as simmuhman.