#idk. im 4x vaxxed. i should just shut up

[juroguro]

thinking back to pre covid when i would be deadly sick with the common cold for at least a month each winter and thought that was normal

#idk. just having immunocomp thoughts right now #i feel so unsafe around everyone in person right now and sort of hopeless that ill ever have a relatively normally life again #and im entirely fine with never going to any sort of large event ever again but. why should i have to make that choice #bc i don't even feel safe seeing one or two people outside of my household right now. i just. idk #seeing that the majority of the population thinks the pandemic is over shell shocked me. like y'all really live in a different world #is it weird that i feel less safe now then i did 2020? or maybe it's just that at least then ppl cared if i lived or died lol #but now it's just about abled convenience. like it's always been #my doc didn't even tell me that the flu could do me in until covid started. like. huh. funny haha #my health didn't matter then and it doesn't matter now bc it's just more convenient for ableds ignore that #idk. im 4x vaxxed. i should just shut up #spoonie journal