#idk. manifest a good easy job with good benefits that i can tolerate if not enjoy for me or whatever.

[direful]

i'm so fucking tired

#job hunting juggling various interviews & dreading committing to anything bc i'm not passionate about any of these positions #and yet i really really really need money so if a part time gig hires me i will Have to quit if i hear from a full time afterwards #& i WILL feel guilty abt it even though i have no respect for any of the part time jobs i applied to bc theyre all seasonal retail #AND. to make matters worse & me more stressed. #due to Life Things i got shunted onto a new insurance so i have to change everything over to the new system & figure all that out #& i can't keep seeing my amazing doc & i'm sad bc i wanted to get a referral from her for a top surgeon after i got the job thing sorted ou #so now i have to set up a new doc & transfer my records & hope the new one will fill my scrips bc she cant see me irl till february #& i was supposed to start meds for my newly diagnosed adhd last week but that's stuck somewhere in insurance limbo & idk when i'll get it #and if i get a job with benefits i have to do all this insurance shit AGAIN and i'm so stressed about the possibility of that #idk. manifest a good easy job with good benefits that i can tolerate if not enjoy for me or whatever. #hurgle hurgle