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#im depressdd and anxious and in pain i should get a therapist but thats hard and i dont fucking trust ppl
toytulini
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#i guess i just need to find a different job since this one seems to be. not great for me
#but i also like. dont know what wont be bad for me. like sorry i just dont think there are jobs that are accessible to me that arent going
#to feel Like This
#at least in some way. and this one has good insurance and shit. and if i can get my shit together it has fucking. paid community service
#time that i could theoretically use to like. volunteer at the aquarium or smth and have a day off for it and get paid by my job
#which could be a foot in the door to a career that i am interested in but im just fucking. stuck and fatigued and in pain and wallowing and
#have no fucking energy and i cant do anything and im fucking nocturnal and i joke about it and i was fine with it but i hate it i hate
#not seeing the fucking sun and i miss my old job which is INSANE but i know what i miss about that job was
#that it was part time. and i regret not doing more with that
#but im also allergic to normal hours i guess i dont fucking know
#i know part of it is prolly just feeling profoundly out if control of my life so i just stay up bc at least thats quiet time for me
#w no expectations but thats not even tru bc i shoukd be at least doing my fucking laundry or smth cos it would make sense
#and the fucking answer to so many of my issues rn is like just do that then or just stop doing that then but i cant i dont know why im just
#like this ive always been like this stupid useless cant fucking do anything cant fix my shit just fucking wallowing and angry and doing
#nothing and its just gotten worse cos now i have fucking chronic pain and fatigue and now i REALLY do FUCKALL
#im depressdd and anxious and in pain i should get a therapist but thats hard and i dont fucking trust ppl
#i should move out and maybe that would help bc i wouldnt feel like i have to wear a mask around my own house but im barely functioning
#as is w a lot of support from my mom i cant fucking live on my own
#not to mention the whole country being so fucking. Bad rn. ive done nothing all day not even resting
#and tomorrow ill wake up too late and be in a rush and in pain and tired and just
#i dont fucking know
#im so miserable and lately so many topics can just send my stupid little brain just Spiralling but i dont want to say that i dont want ppl
#to feel weird for talking about fucking college. i dont want to sit here being so bitter that something in my brain broke about school
#im happy for ppl who can do their fucking college shit i just. smth wrong in my brain and i cant dwell on it and i try not to be too
#outwardly negative about it cos i dont want ppl to feel like they cant talk to me about it or smth idk
#rambling and venting and im gonna hit tag limit lmao for sure
#been having the same goddamn problems nonstop for my whole life and its just that i cant fucking do anything
#i have too much shit i should rid of
#whatever
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