#im literally driving 10hrs in less than a week from now

[biolums]

#have been so down lately and just thought about subnautica. specifically peepers and got happy :) #something something little thingsin life #ive told myself i will visit my grandma today. will report back if that happens #trying to be easy on myself while also not doing something ill regret is hard #i am. so not ready to see my grandma. im mentally so not there and ive been so shakey mentally for months and i just. idk #it would be easier on me if i didnt see her. but im not sure thats fair to my future self let alone my grandma herself #i just. i dont know. i hate being in survival mode like who fucking doesnt want to see their grandma when shes dying. whar the fuck #fun fact i get an anxiety attack everytime i receive text messages now because im convinced its my dad telling me she died #its. probably a good thing i have a psychiastrist appointment tomorrow #anyways. hi #im just. popping in idk if i will like. come back #lifw rn is. so much #im literally driving 10hrs in less than a week from now