#instead !!!!! instead i am stranded in kansas!!! feeling like that fucking. ohio dog song. :(

[lostjulys]

hm. i think for the first time i am. actually feeling homesick.

#that has never really been a thing that has affected me!!!! but. i will admit. it feels. weird. being here. and knowing that like. i won't #be going back to new york. like. i've lived on my own for a long fucking while now i've traveled all fucking sorts of places but like.. #it's weird not having that anchor of like. yeah at least i'll be back soon. yk? and... idk. i do not know how to articulate this in a way #that does not sound rude. i do not. i'm not used 2 being. here. like. the midwest. i'm in a fairly small town with a catholic college and #like. everyone is so fucking boring. there's no one weird or interesting or delighful. #kc is nice!!! i love u kc i've only been there a couple times but the part i was in was exceedingly nice and also extremely queer friendly. #but MAN. everything's so fucking boring. i miss boston i've been. thinking abt my favorite coffee shop there. i miss nyc i miss taking the #port jervis line into grand central i miss fucking. dc!!!!! i didn't get to go to the east gallery again before we left :( #evil and bad. i am a girl who is meant to thrive in big cities and travel around and visit pretty places and drive in the mountains and #instead !!!!! instead i am stranded in kansas!!! feeling like that fucking. ohio dog song. :( #dot text