#into emotions when ur watching it as a kid + the ambiguity of intimacy/love with rose and pearl just rlly clicked for me

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Everytime I tell people who know me pretty well I LOVED Pearl from Steven Universe as a child it’s so humiliating bc they’re always like oh of COURSE you did . I bet you loved her thing with rose quartz didn’t you and I have to admit Rosepearl was an integral part me building an understanding of queerness and they’re like that makes SO much sense. I cannot keep doing this

#fern.txt #its interesting looking back bc I feel SU being good at not making u feel ur being talked down to or talked over w how it goes #into emotions when ur watching it as a kid + the ambiguity of intimacy/love with rose and pearl just rlly clicked for me #bc i had known of gay relationships before but I have always been so obviously aromantic so if u explained them to me only in #the lens of romsntic relationships I just didn’t get it esp in how it could relate to my own identity #but idk I remember I watched rose’s scabbard over some classmates shoulder and was genuinely just so fascinated #with how pearl had all these deep feelings for another woman but it wasn’t just for the show to say they were exes n pearl wanted to get #back together with her or they used to be dating etc it was just her mourning her overall love and relationship w rose #and w my aromanticism I’ve always been able to understand love I just feel I hit a wall n disconnect when it’s romsntic love in the confines #of a conventional romsntic relationship%. so with this I was like wow I really resonate w this feeling of just rlly loving another woman and #I am able to kind of understand how those feelings fe n experiences exist outside of just Wanting To Date Someone #its rlly interesting bc I think it just continues to be a facet to my own queerness to this day #when it comes to relationships specifically I still lean towards n love ambiguity in fiction + my own work #bc I think that lets me resonate between when I jsut have this complete blind spot of being able to relate to anything with romsntic #relationships bc I’m on the aro spectrum OFL