#is giving out i know im namedropping all these things b nim too anxious to even think clearly and i was so anxious last night I couldn’t sle

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just took a covid test and jm negative but i am so anxious and insane. i think i have symptoms but i am probably imagining them which only makes me more anxious which only makes me imagine them more. tess pepprs psychological torture moments

#purrs #my dad brought me groceries and david and romy brought me extra tests and mt dad is coming back with toothbrush heads bc i accidentally #touched my toothbrush to the faucet and my roomie and I share a sink and COVID germs last 24h on stainless steel. ihave capstone oresentstio #presentation rehearsal in an hour and sauter is gonna kill me proabblt and i have to tell her im not trying to get out of it it’s that my #roommate went to a party. i have sclc tomorrow and dr shapiro probably thinks im a flake and i am so glad to be done w it LOL and i wanna as #ask her to be a reference for my application but she can’t and i have to be creative with references and this shit is so stressful my heart #is giving out i know im namedropping all these things b nim too anxious to even think clearly and i was so anxious last night I couldn’t sle #sleep. and i have to get my capstone done by Tuesday but im like a deer in headlights rn and shaking so badly. everyone keeps telling me im #gonna be ok and i know feelings aren’t facts and me feeling abject terror doesn’t mean anything but i am so so so so terrified. i just want #to not have a body like i need to ask pat how to separate ur mind from ur body bc being in my body right now is really bad. it’s really bad #ajdni don’t trust myself or anything and it’s so bad. i can’t trust my body or my brain and im at the mercy of the particles in the air. lol #delete later #ik all i post these days is like snapshots of despair abt irl things but this is really really hard. and i just don’t know what else to do