#it might just be my new meds bc I know that they can kinda hinder romantic feelings and stuff

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#hey guys I’m just gonna vent a bit #and it has a bit to do with self shipping so I’m gonna post it here #but lately I think I’ve just been like… idk so unmotivated to make content of my fos? #like don’t get me wrong I still love them all but #it used to be like so much fun and all consuming for me and like I would happily watch my f/os content over and over again #but lately it’s just been feeling … like.. not the same idk #like I’ll want to watch or see more pictures of hook but everytime I go to do it I’m like ‘but I’ve watched this 27 times already’ #and I’m bored before I even click on it #and I feel so bad ?? #like I’m falling out of love with self shipping or something #idk it’s hard to explain bc I still like.. do it and I still think about my f/so a lot #but since my ocd theme is very romantic/sexual orientation oriented it kind of like.. makes me romance and sex adverse sometimes #and rn I’ve been going through a really long period of that that makes me feel dissconnected from my f/os :( #it sucks bc it used to be a great source of a coping mechanism for me #but lately it’s just been different idk ;-; #I miss the days when I could just turn off my brain and obsess over my current blorbo and not worry about anything or anyone else #I love James so much but it’s like whenever I go to draw him and I doing something cute together halfway through I get unmotivated or I just #don’t get that same excitement feeling I used to #it might just be my new meds bc I know that they can kinda hinder romantic feelings and stuff #but man it sucks