#it rings so true to lxy's life. you think you've shed pretensions of your old life and indeed you have gained new perspective and clarity

[seventh-fantasy]

remembering tonight "变得不适应因为它们原本来自江河大海 世上本不应该有池塘" (said by a monk character) and thinking about the sea being repeatedly suggested to be the place with the last traces of lxy - and llh - in this world

#rough tl: 'they found themselves out of place bc they came from the rivers and sea. there ought not to be ponds in the world to begin with' #(it's just going home) #lz 1994 is not a perfect film to me but it's got some banger lines that GET IT. #once again this is not anything new i'm saying about lhl/llh but everyday i ruminate and think. oh they understand OKAY. #they know what they're doing. it's all in the narrative and the motifs #mainstream cnet reading of lhl/llh has always taken a buddhist lens. and thinking about that one cfan who specifically said chan/zen: #the journey of liberating yourself is. smth you can attain in ordinary mortal life but it's also smth that warrants continuous reiteration #it rings so true to lxy's life. you think you've shed pretensions of your old life and indeed you have gained new perspective and clarity #until it stops serving you and you realise it's not enough and it's time to move again #if the idea of llh is built on the denial of the idea of lxy #then towards the end of the show lxy realises this distinction is one-sided and imagined #if what 'llh' had offered to him is the taste of liberation and freedom then clearly it had run its course. face it. it's time to move #he experiments with his identities like he experiments with his cooking. the last one's alr good enough. why stick to it #anw there's no coherence in this post. just tacking thoughts all to this like a board so that i'll eventually write a proper post. maybe #lhlmeta #lhl #my posts #GOOD NIGHT IT'S 2AM jfc not again