#it’s so messed up !! tbqh !! warden alistair is the ideal to me

[pinkfey]

the thing abt rowena and alistair that kills me is how her making him king is (in her head) an act of love in the same way her parents sending her with duncan against her will was

#forcing fate on another bc it’s your only means of protecting them #dooming them to a life they never wanted but at least they’ll live a few years long #*longer #in her head there isn’t even a choice and that is fucked up!! of course there’s a choice!! his choice!! #bc in her head as long as he is alive he’s a threat to the crown and people will never leave him be #and she can’t trust anora because anora is too much like her and she’s already been wounded by the people in power #too much to trust anyone other than herself #so she makes him king and promises she’ll carry all of the burden and he relents only because he loves her #it’s so messed up !! tbqh !! warden alistair is the ideal to me #but it’s just not something rowena would do #there’s commentary about how a deeply traumatized TWENTY YEAR OLD should not be the one deciding the fate of a country #too much power in the hands of a girl so angered at those whose actions put her there #idk why i’m rambling i just. that decision is awful yet so complex. there’s so much going on there and so much that intersects !! #her and alistair her and anora her and eamon and loghain and howe….. #i know ppl hate when alistair isn’t a warden and especially when he’s still softened while made king it’s just !! it’s abt The Narrative 😔 #and they end up okay. they do. they’re okay. he doesn’t hate her for it. they love each other Too Much. it’s just !! u know !! a flaw !! #anyways.txt #ch: rowena cousland #x: a soft epilogue