#it’s the rituals. it’s the self-reflective aspect. it’s light through a church window and bowing your head

[cvsette]

The thing about church is that I would love to go to a Place every Sunday and have the ritual of a group service and hear music and sing with the rest of the attendees and listen to a sermon about a Topic and reflect on how to be a better, kinder, more self-sacrificing person and feel very small in the universe but also feel as though I can do something to help those around me and in the broader community and have volunteer opportunities to do just that. But the thing is I will always feel like an imposter because I can’t make myself believe in God outside of being in a metaphorical foxhole. Anyways who’s down to invent agnostic Episcopalianism

#personal #I think about that clip of the young pope where he’s like ‘you can love god as fervently as you want that’s why I can only love him #a lot #and yes. joining a volunteer group or a neighborhood group or whatever would accomplish some of these goals but #it’s the rituals. it’s the self-reflective aspect. it’s light through a church window and bowing your head #I would love religious services if they didn’t make me feel like a bad person for being unable to have faith #which is probably the most Catholic thing I’ve ever said #i was baptized Episcopalian and raised Methodist + universalist Unitarian for the record #sorry to Catholics for appropriating your culture