#it's a 3 hour ride or nothing. etc. etc. Like if you're on a ship in the middle of the ocean and suddenly just desperately decided you need

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Daily Log 9

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Worked on the previously mentioned tapestry style painting thing for like 5-6 hours today (with a few breaks in between), and that's just for the border around the main picture lol.. I think all the little sections and detail always take longer than I think they might. But hopefully the final product will look interesting! :0

I feel like I'm entering another Sick Phase where I just am weird/ill/sleepy/having joint pains much of the day (probably some vitamin deficiencies or hormone imbalances or general bodily inflammation or whatever nonsense seems to randomly pop up from time to time lol), so couldn't focus on anything more intensive like writing or editing videos, unfortunately. It's good to have smaller crafts I can do that don't take much mental effort and are just menial hand tasks (like carving, painting, sculpting, etc.), but I still always feel frustrated falling behind on the things I see as much more broadly significant to my overall life and potential career (making games, writing, finishing videos, socializing, costumes, etc.)

Organized my desk a little. Responded to some doctor emails. Paid bills.

Planned out something I might make with pressed flowers tomorrow.

Edited like 4 costume photos.

Also have a lingering sense of dread due to the weather. The heat often makes me feel terrible, and if I'm already in kind of a Bad Phase at the moment, I'm afraid of it making it even worse... stimky..

Which I know these temperatures are nothing to some people but.. to me... aUGHHHH... I am abnormally heat sensitive + live in a dinky old apartment with no ventilation that gets direct sun the hottest part of the day.. on a 90F day outside, it literally gets about 84F inside.. like.. even people who love the heat I feel like would struggle to sleep at night if their bed is 85F lol... hewwo.. You can spray yourself down with water, drink ice water, put a fan on yourself, etc. etc. but.. sometimes it just feels so oppressive and inescapable..

ANYWAY. Aside from painting, feeling weird, and dreading the upcoming heat/contemplating my entire life and how to get enough money to move to a different climate somehow one day/existential exhaustion/etc., I didn't accomplish very much lol

Spent maybe 30 minutes thinking about a little more worldbuilding stuff, and some things in reference to the game I mentioned resuming work on at some point.

Notable sights: The clouds were really pretty and pastel this afternoon, and some stars are visible in the sky for once since the nights are beginning to be clearer. The 'forget me not' flowers that I thought had died after transplanting actually seemed to be perked up and healthy looking today, and perhaps may actually survive. >:3

Goals moving forward: Do new poll adventure post. focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with the ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Not much, kind of a warm day so didn't really want to use the oven. No idea how I'll handle the diet I've been put on by my doctors (involves usually cooking all food fresh, using the stove a lot, nothing is supposed to be canned or processed or premade, so that eliminates a lot of 'quick easy simple warm weather' meals, etc. etc.) during the heatwave. I might just have to break the diet a little and hope it doesn't give me stomach pains while I'm already hot and feeling sick lol..

I did have a boiled egg with some green onions on top, which is very simple but was refreshing somehow lol. Another ice cold ginger ale treat today, and some cold prune juice (which I know most people find gross/it's an old person food/etc., but I like that it's a smooth textured and not very sweet juice? Like it's slightly thicker than apple juice, has a lightly bitter taste, etc. I just find it nice for some reason. More evidence I am secretly an 85 year old wizard)

#why can't it be global cooling instead of global warming.. what if everything was just ice and I was comfortable and happy all year around #heat also sometimes gives me like a.. mild situational claustrophobia (like not a place that you are confined in/can't escape #but more an environmental factor that's all consuming. Like when there's fires and smoke fills the sky for days and it's like no matter #where you are you could never get away from it unless you're locked inside shut off from the entire world. if you need a breath #of fresh air or are feeling too confined you no longer have the option of going outside. it's all toxic. etc.) #Or like part of why I hate long car rides is for that reason. If I'm 3 hours away from home there is no way for me to get home #other than to ride 3 hours back. If I suddenly decided I really would rather be home I could not get home quickly. the 3 hours #to get home is an inescapable barrier. No matter how sick I started feeling or how bad things are and how much I wish I was comfortable #and safe at home - the only way to get there is to get there. you knowwhat I mean lol? I can't just be home in 20 minutes #it's a 3 hour ride or nothing. etc. etc. Like if you're on a ship in the middle of the ocean and suddenly just desperately decided you need #to be back on land. there isn't anything you can do. nothing will get you back on land but to stay on the ship and travel the hours it take #to get there. there's no quick exit. No way out that isn't doing the thing you already really don't want to be doing anymore (being in a ca #r or being in a ocean or etc. No alternative route but to just suffer the situation longer). idk.. if that makes sense?? #so with the heat sometimes it's like.. it's hot INSIDE and it's hot OUTSIDE and it's hot everywhere you go theres no escape #from it and nothing you can do but just.. be hot. no matter how desperate you are to just BE COLD even for a few minutes #you simply don't have the option. The only way to get cool again is to just wait out the hot weather. You can yearn for the feeling of a #cool breeze all you want but abdolutely nothing will get you colder than just to be miserable in place and wait for the passage of time. #I always get that feeling in the summer like after five 90+F degree days in a row you're like AAAAAAAAAA #JUST AN ESCAPE JUST A QUICK ESCAPE DEAR LORD ' and then 5 minutes later like 'hee he. no its fine. haha. im actually so okay #with my situation i am coping.' short bursts of heat induced frantic anxiety with some resigned calm in between ghjgj #ANYWAY. yes every year I complain about the same thing. I am a hater and a complainer first and foremost ggh.. I love to be honest and #express my thoughts and opinions. I think way too many people are so reserved and repress everything for the sake of like social etiquitte #or personal insecurity (like owrrying they're being annoying or talking too much or that novody cares what they say etc.) #and then that ends up causing passive agression and communication issues and resentments that boil under the surface for years because they #re never adequately expressed. I don't think complaining is an inherently negative thing and it's weird to me that people react so #like it's some sort of moral thing to be against it. Like of course within reason. don't complain to the point that you appreciate #none of the good things around you or like where you start bullying people or something. but broadly speaking. being able to express your #concerns and thoughts in small bursts easily and openly and release some of that tension is better than just holding onto it all and having #it come out larger later or making you internally miserable or etc.. ANYWAY.. yeaghh.. hate heat.. hopefully done with painting soon.etc. #daily log

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CruiseAnon: YES AGH Thank you! I really love knowing what I'm getting myself into and you're making a compelling case to save up for one! (well at this point im gonna do it AAA) Does it ever get boring tho? Is there seriously alot to do, and is wifi existential on board? Sorry for all the questions!!

under the cut again!! its no problem!!

the wifi is throughout the ship, and there are charging ports in every stateroom! however i would advise against using it very often because you’re charged depending on how much time you’re on, and you can imagine that keeping up wifi on a ship that will sail over huge vast oceans would be expensive to have, so they charge accordingly. (you probably wont even need to use it with all the stuff they have to do)

honestly, theres stuff to do every hour of every day, and im not exaggerating. every night while you’re eating, room servicers come into your room and tidy things up, and when they do they leave you a Personal Navigator sheet. you get a new one every day, and it plots out events that are happening all over the ship, for all ages. heres a pic of one from a different cruise

(that’s just what they’ll look like, all the activities wont be the same as on that one)

they have movies play on the top deck on a huge screen ALL DAY, plus they have movies (and sometimes premiers!! my grandma and i saw Melificent the day it came out on the boat!!) in the Buena Vista theater all day, with 30 minutes in between each one. plus, if you feel like staying in your room, theres on demand movies, shows, shorts, etcs on the stateroom tv. theres also regular channels like music channels, ABC, Freeform, etc (those dont work as often but when you’re in a port on on castaway cay they usually work)

often times, theres a 30 min art class everyday, each day a staff member teaches you how to draw a disney character. theres trivia sessions (disney trivia, music trivia, movie trivia [those last two are mostly for adults tho]) and the team with the most answers correct at the end get a prize (usually a keychain or a magnet, nothing huge)

theres origami classes, towel folding classes (everynight when the servicers come into ur stateroom they leave a folded towel animal with chocolates!!!) theres golfing on the top deck + a basketball area. if you or someone with u are under 17, theres clubs for each agegroup (oceaneers for 3-10, edge for 10-13, vibe for 14-17) if you’re an adult, theres a private pool area, a gym and a spa (i think you have to pay extra for treatments there tho)

of course theres the aquadunk, that awesome water slide on the top deck (really fun to ride at night, the tube lights up!!) theres gift shops, theres live shows EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!! there are lounges where they host parties for adults late at night, and serve alcohol. theres characters around the whole ship at most times during the day.

AND OF COURSE theres pirate night!! its on every single cruise no matter how short. you get a bandana and a special dinner menu, plus there are characters from the pirates of the carabian movies walking around the lobby decks. then at around 9-10 pm theres a show on the top deck, with some really really awesome fireworks. its the best

THERES SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!!!!

#this one is ULTRA long but!! i love this cruise man #feel free to ask me anything else!! i wanna make sure you will really like this cruise if youre gonna save for it!! #Anonymous