#it's almost like a huge portion of our genders are determined socially. by those who are around us and by the situations and spaces we inhab

[non-un-topo]

Every time I spend too many days in a row at home, I get it into my head that I don't actually want to transition, and then I go back into the world and go Oh. I remember what it's like to have a body and a mind.

#it's almost like a huge portion of our genders are determined socially. by those who are around us and by the situations and spaces we inhab #-inhabit. #it's almost like i study this at an honours level. #<< that doesn't in any way discount or devalue or delegitimize a person's gender identity and expression. #we do Live in a Society #can't really be disabled without the world that disables. might not know you want to transition until you understand your own position. #sometimes it's relative. #also sorry i've been using tumblr as like a complain diary lately. i'm going through some serious shit. #it is a blogging site so. #i'm sure i'm not the only person who thinks 'i must not be trans' the moment i don't feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred. #thanks to the medical/deficit model! #and i do feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred. oh i do. but sometimes it's easier in my home and i forget. and i go: #'Oh! i must be cis because i feel okay about my body and mind today' #*whispering to self* you're just scaaaaared. scaredy little peepeepoopoo pants who won't accept being wrong