#it's fine i'm like. gonna go curl up in bed cozy about it which ought 2 help. swaddle the baby

[aeide-thea]

tiny sad shriveled walnut feelings, lol

#it's fine i'm like. gonna go curl up in bed cozy about it which ought 2 help. swaddle the baby #increasingly as i age i sort of vaguely feel like i ought to be aging out of this but unfortunately idt that's how brains work #like you may age out of seeming sympathetic but you don't actually age out of feeling sad #or like. combination of loneliness and depression and vague existential anxiety. whatever. idk. sad. #anyway i gotta get back 2 biking. can't be sad when yr whole body is a sandbag #i like. honestly i'm not in a good place to be dating anybody but like. WOULD like to curl up with somebody quietly. #be warm and heavy in company. maybe kiss a bit. idk. #small wistful feelings. i'd be nice to touch i promise. #unfortunately all the brainstuff that makes me want these things is also all the brainstuff that cuts me off from them. #like the very first getting-to-know-you questions feel like nonstarters so just. no people for me. :( #maybe the cat will want to come cuddle. we can only hope