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#it's like being super alert on a fucking battleground 24/6. absolutely exhausting
lucy-ghoul
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2 years
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#i think what really upsets me about intrusive thoughts/ocd related issues
#is the lack of control over my own brain
#like. it's really really scary and i've been living with it for almost 14 years
#the fact that your suffering is not provoked by something you did/other people did
#but by your stupid fucking brain you have 0 to control over
#you can't do *nothing* about it except taking your meds waiting for some fucking peace of mind at last and endure
#this feeling of helplessness is unnerving i swear
#no wonder i fixate on fictional control freaks (tho i don't consider myself a control freak tbh)
#no matter how different in temperament/experiences i can very much relate to the longing for some power over yourself
#it's very painful and maybe an aspect of ocd that is not much talked about
#even the fact that i'm like. 100% lucid makes it all so difficult
#i know *exactly* what's real and what's not. i know these random thoughts while extremely unpleasant are an exaggeration
#and that i give them too much importance
#but at the same time.. i really can't do anything about it
#it's like being super alert on a fucking battleground 24/6. absolutely exhausting
#well... at least tonight it's eurovision time so for a few hours the depression is forgotten i guess
#(obviously don't reblog please)
#mental health tag
#val speaks
#txt
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