#its BADDDD its so bad I shouldn't be scared to go outside

[roger-paladino]

Sorry for being really slow with like. everything art related guys I have been going through it so bad

#Im so emotionally and physically burnt out rn i physically can't even talk to my friends without feeling like my heads abt to explode #this is mostly for the people commissioning me rn I can't get anything good out atm #I'm working on them but bear with me for a day or so #so im gonna. mental health break. Im seeing my dad tomorrow and saturday he's getting me out of the house so maybe I'll be back to normal #my mums bf put up cameras that alert his phone when someone moves outside and it just kicked my anxiety up so bad I literally can't handle #the idea of leaving the house and him seeing it on the camera and making a comment lmaoooo #I gotta. get over that but he makes fun of me all the time anyway (in a joking way im just sensitive) so I just expect it #and bc of that I can't leave my house more so than normal #I need to see a doctor abt my anxiety like. bad. but Im too scared of going and wasting their time since the NHS is already strained #which. also comes from my anxiety lol #its BADDDD its so bad I shouldn't be scared to go outside #I do try and force myself and its never that bad but I disassociate the whole time and I feel like im not making any progress really #anyway sorry for turning into a little vent LMAO oopsie.. #all this to say I'm very eepy and just need a second to get back on track #.txt