#its not romantic or sweet. its frankly disturbing and horrifying. if i knew my partner- who ive talked about marriage with- was torn like

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him, already with a girlfriend that he wants to marry: I wanted to kiss you when I saw you. I wanted to kiss you on the bridge as well.

me, externally: i- eh- what-

me, internally: soooo many red flags how can he just admit this??

#personal #when did my life become a fucking k-drama? #not that anything will happen. i firmly closed that door. #sir you can be as romantic and funny and sweet as possible but that does not excuse that red flag right there #its not romantic or sweet. its frankly disturbing and horrifying. if i knew my partner- who ive talked about marriage with- was torn like #this? over someone they have not seen in years- i would be deeply hurt #just- why man are you so messy? #why are you so presumptuous? where does this audacity come from? 'i know my feelings for you and i know your feelings for me' #HOWWWW I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN FEELINGS #i reject all feelings that i cannot rationalize and sort out- i- where does he get this audacity #fucking Shakespeare ass motherfucker. #BUT IM THE ONE WHO SAID 'IF OUR STARS CROSS AGAIN' I CANT BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THAT- IVE BEEN IN GENSHIN BRAIN ROT FOR THE LAST 24 HOURS #AND BEYOND THAT SAPPY AKA/FURI FLUFF SOUP #excuse me if i say something poetic and poignant. stupid red flag 'isms just tear society apart' GAHHH #i still want to be friends but i SWEAR if he says some flirty earnst comment or- looks at me like im some fucking miracle like he has been #the last times we were face to face- i dont know what to do. i cant encourage that behavior. and no physical punishments either. thats just #flirting on my part. ill just- raise my eyebrows like a disapointed teacher or some shit i guess fuck #pls dont percieve #unless you have advice. tell me to ignore him. block him. cut him off. because... if you saw the way he looks at me... apollo doesnt need #to throw his red ball to manifest me messing their relationship. i refuse to do it.