#its so easy for me to become resentful and bitter bc yes they have been very rude and mistreated me

[waitinginthecorner]

Okay last time talking abt it fr but Ngl as much as it hurts to hear how little the people I live with think of me I do genuinely love criticism against my character and actively seek it out. I take whatever they say and shake and cry about it for awhile bc I think anyone would be sad to be so blatantly pushed away by the people who are supposed to love them, but I also take it to heart. There are many ways I am immature and disrespectful. Not necessarily in all the same ways they say but I can also see how it'd seem that way to them since they don't like to acknowledge they way they behave themselves or reasons why someone wouldn't blindly respect them. I think I've been too lax with myself in terms of behavior and what I say, and that's something I do want to work on. Just because they act the way they do doesn't mean I should feed into it too. It's definitely hard sometimes but I know I can do it. Patience is the biggest virtue I have to learn

#rambling #its so easy for me to become resentful and bitter bc yes they have been very rude and mistreated me #but i can absolutely be a better person. its ridiculous to let myself be dragged down to whatever level theyre on #i know better than that too. its just the easy way. no more of tht tho or at least not as much