#just saying that contributes to the sexualization (and presumably assult though i don't know statistics) of asian women

[buffintruder]

my white professor of japanese language in society is not the worst person but sometimes she says things. and just. do you ever think about the implications of what you are saying

#also she the way she speaks often comes off a little condescending tone wise but i don't think she means it in a bad way and also i'm biased #but like she basically implied that a japanese person hating an american was the same as hating foreigners in general #i do not think a store in japan with a sign of 'no americans allowed' is great but there is a history there #the store owner could be a xenophobic nationalist bigot #but it's not the same as saying 'no koreans' or 'no foreigners' or whatever else #america did significant harm to japan not even a life time ago and the power dynamics are so completely different #also 'women in japan flock to white men' is so messed up do i have to explain it to you #i do not care if statistics back that up or not #just saying that contributes to the sexualization (and presumably assult though i don't know statistics) of asian women #in asia as well as america #you have a daughter who is half japanese and there is a fair chance that she's going to have to directly face those sentiments #also making all the people in the class who grew up with some amount of bilingualism share their experiences to monolingual people is iffy #like i love talking about myself but i also love having the ability to say #'no i do not wish to share deeply personal experiences and thoughts in a one sided discussion to a stranger' #like some of the questions she put up to give us a direction in the conversation included #something that ended in me talking about whether or not i hold any resentment toward my parents for not being raised fully bilingually #the answer i did not give to that was 'sort of but not really because actually deep down i blame myself and feel like a fake' #also 'do you want to raise your kids bilingually.' i know i won't have kids and this question still keeps me up at night #the people i talked with were super chill like 'sorry we're asking you these kind of invasive questions' and i didn't mind sharing but still #also sometimes the way she talks about interacting with asians in america gives off vaguely white savior-y vibes #i don't want to give off the impression that i'm suffering in class everyday #mostly it's fine and the topics in class are interesting and the people are cool #but also there is a lingering discomfort and sometimes i just want to scream #wow writing down all my frustrations and putting it somewhere other people can see it really does feel nice #personal post