#just would like to write 50k words that include plot points I actually care abt

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90% sure it’s another Hbtw Nano year b/c i’m not interested in or thinking abt anything else right now, fully in 24/7 hbtw brain mode, But i’m also at what i would charitably call the Beginning of a complete overhaul of any’s personal lore and motivations / the entire rhea situation, which means huge changes to the entire first arc (again) which i severely doubt will be anywhere near settled by nov @_@;; also recently started thinking about why the hell godseams as a power system work the way they do in literally any capacity + may have to fix that before I move on anywhere (++ I think it’s the cornerstone of the problem I’ve been kind of circling since last year wrt wanting the deities to be more present on earth than they currently can be, but also if that’s true then iloilo’s plan&the entire ‘correct century’ changes nothing/io has nowhere to go back to, so the simple solution doesn’t work) … never satisfied ever lol I think it’ll just be Hbtw Sea So Deep Arc (But Slightly Different This Time) for nano every year for the rest of my life at the point (-﹏-。)

#2014 and 2018 were my two Miracle Novel years but i’m not even asking for a time THAT good again #just would like to write 50k words that include plot points I actually care abt #seems like it should be an easy task. and yet #bbbbbbbb i’ve been thinking abt dg a lot recently since it’s I Can Fix Her season and like. definitely can not go back there again BUT #it’s still so infuriating that that book is structured the way it is for no reason when it’s very very obvious from rereading everything #*Surrounding it in notes &c. that the main appeal of the plot is that we know dale’s secret but not saya’s…? #daydreaming of a draft that leans into the devil king memories plot from the beginning bc that was the whole point of his character… #anyways though we’re not doing that so it’s beside the point. putting it down asap #what we Are doing is returning to the stupid fake godspeaker plot that I thought I’d put to bed permanently circa 2020 #but I guess that’s what rhea is abt all along. In A Way. a [usurped position] … #txt #nano tag #anyways anyways. feeling very put-upon abt this entirely self-inflicted situation bye