#kinda tripped and fell into ao3 discourse there

[t-eyla]

Sometimes I wonder if I’m too exclusionary about my ship preferences in DMBJ: whenever I’m reading something that’s not Iron Triangle OT3, I’d rather it were, and I don’t ever write anything else (or, well, the polycule can get bigger, and the members of the polycule can have outside relationships, but the OT3 is always there in the background).

The fandom’s quite small, and exclusionary focus on Iron Triangle OT3 limits my choices in stuff to read/ to enjoy. Writing it means there’s a number of people who won’t read my fic. And I don’t dislike the other ships. They’re good, I’m happy when people enjoy them. They’re just not for me.

Anyway, I just rewatched Star Trek: The Motion Picture. Star Trek: TOS was my first fandom, but I never managed to really pin down a ship for myself. K/S was fine, I enjoyed it, but it wasn’t quite it. I always ended up missing Bones. The other ships that existed were also all fine, but none of them quite hit the spot. Now, you gotta realize, this was over 20 years ago, and I was in my teens. “Polyamory” was not really a thing I’d heard of outside of awful men marrying 50 women under religious pretenses and exploiting them. And while there were a handful of people writing Kirk/Spock/Bones, the AO3 didn’t exist and I was using Yahoo search to find things. Figuring out that Kirk/Spock/Bones was the thing I wanted didn’t just happen.

Time passed, I moved on to other fandoms, I found other ships, I figured out my own sexuality and preferences, the AO3 came to be. And now I’m here in DMBJ fandom shipping the Iron Triangle--and, you know, that ship is not so different from the TOS OT3. Xiaoge and Spock have some character archetype overlap, so do Pangzi and Bones, and Kirk and Wu Xie are both heavily plot armored protagonists driven by curiosity and solving problems with unlikely maneuvers that would never work in a story that cares about realism, never mind reality. It’s the first ship dynamic I fell for, even though I didn’t realize it at the time, just because I didn’t even have a name for it.

So, you know, thinking about it like that, maybe I get to just soak in the pleasure of having discovered a ship that does what I want at a point in my life when I can finally put a name to what it is that I want. Maybe I don’t need to give Pingxie a chance, or keep an open mind for leaving Xiaoge or Wu Xie out of the mix. I’m never going to have as much content to enjoy as someone who ships the main ship, but that’s okay, as long as I can go on the AO3 and read the handful of fics for my ship and post my little poly stories for other people looking for poly content to enjoy.

(... and this is why we don’t want censorship on the AO3, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.)

#dmbj #pingpangxie #kirk x spock x bones #star trek: tos #poly feels #is this a ship manifesto [butterfly meme] #kinda tripped and fell into ao3 discourse there #oops #can't be said enough though #anyway POLY SHIPS FTW

[gimmethatagustd]

Hi!! Okay so this is a bit of a weird ask (??) but I just went on a ~trip~ through your blog and thought you'd like to know. Maybe. Possibly.

So, I randomly remembered about TFM Yoongi, and super super got the itch to re-read it again. I knew it was on hiatus (literally a few days after I first read it 🥲), but I had it saved on my ✨secret bts fanfiction side-blog✨and on ao3. Couldn't find it. Panicked.

Quickly skimmed through your masterlist and wips - no signs of life. Maybe yoongles took it with him to the army for some late night reading? I considered sending you an ask, but then I was like - No, poor babygirl author probably gets a bunch of these, I'd much rather go through their posts, than to be yet another "WhEre iS tHe fiC" random stranger.

So I did. Did I find any additional info on it? Why is it gone? No. We love tumblr's search function 👍 It's fine, I'm emo anyways, grief is my companion (joking - you do do. It was fire though, I miss it dearly. Jimin was so sassy "Miss Thang" omg. Also poc rep ?? Yes).

HOWEVER. I did notice the delicious amount of DPR IAN discourse (my husband actually) AND that one post about Logic's Supermarket (i have yet to read it but the album is so slay. I actually like it better than some of his "official" stuff oop-). And I just kept thinking, damn, I love the vibes here, we're practically besties at this point.

So I guess here I am??? I don't even read that much BTS ff anymore BUT 👀 I'm all up for more Adorable Representative MCs For Youth content on my dash. We ball I suppose. I hope you have a nice day/week/ whatever 💜

HI I'M SORRY I'M FINALLY RESPONDING TO THIS !! i've been such a mess the past few days from work, so i wanted to make sure i gave myself time to actually respond to this ask properly since you were kind enough to send me such a lovely message!

you are correct, TFM is gone 😭 i deleted it from tumblr and AO3 because i was unhappy with my writing and where the story was going. i was excited for it, and then everything kinda fell apart. I'm sorry!! a lot of people got mad at me for that LMFAO, but i really grew to hate that series, and i figured it would be better to just delete it. i didn't delete the actual fic tho. like i have all my writing saved. i've considered rewriting it to be yoonmin instead of a reader-insert cuz i lowkey hate writing reader-inserts but i still do it for my tumblr followers hjsdfks but that is TBD

i'm glad you enjoyed it tho!! i think i got in my head over it idk. i love the idea and the characters (and FUCK YES diamond was my favorite character. we need queer poc representation in fics~ one thing about me is i'm gonna always give it if i can in a fic 😤) but yeah ! ANYWAY

DPR IAN. i'm gonna write a drabble for him, probably in February~ so i hope you enjoy it when i do!

AND OMG ok i need to read supermarket soon. we can do a book club lmfao. i will 1000% be your bestie, i mean, we're already there atp like you said. dm me whenever you want ok ok ok

i'm happy to be a bts ff dealer for you if you're ever in the mood for it 🙏🏽 I'm honestly on tumblr for the vibes and friends atp so nice people like you are why i stay 🥹 i hope you're doing well !!! you're so nice

ALSO yes i stalked your blog and 👀 sleep token 👀 tbh idk anything about them but i know some of their songs and i am very into it

#moonchild-in-blue #jai asks #happy things ✨ #tfm