#like id slay as a villain i think. i have the fucked up ideals

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when i was young i used to think about if everyone else in the world disappeared overnight, and how nice it would be, because for me, it meant total freedom. i would never have to follow rules for anyone again, i would never have to perform for anyone again, i would never disappoint anyone's expectations of me ever again

#of course that was just a fantasy and today for better or for worse i am a very strong proponent of having a set of rules and norms #-to follow to ensure the smooth working of society which means that i think people should be able to understand and play by those rules #rules that are fair and equitable #even if it means making personal sacrifices #but... i think that's why i wanted everyone else to disappear #i dont think i can exist in a way that doesn't compromise myself as long as even a single other person exists that i am aware of #though im an introvert i am a social creature to a fault.. i meet people in the middle.. im an aggregate of people i know but not *me* #and i think i really hate that about myself. #yap #moodboard #^ INFJ villain monologue #like id slay as a villain i think. i have the fucked up ideals