Tumgik
About
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Visit Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Fun Fact
Tumblr.com rank in the US is 25.
#like mh both suck but at least you're not joking about the fact even if i didn't eat i would be fine cause i'm so fat haha
sensazioneultra
·
9 months
Text
fatphobia is always tiring like always always but when it comes from your own family it's like. extra exhausting. it hurts soo bad. you can't ever escape it
#like that one coworker who pokes fun at your relationship with food and it's obviously rooted in fatphobia? you'll just go home and he won't
#be there it'll hurt for a bit but you'll live
#but like beside super dangerous fatphobia (talking life or death shit like medical fatphobia) the one that does the most damage to me
#is that coming from my own family.. it's just. you already put 43 conditions before the 'i love you' (that you don't ever say but anyway)
#and then when i gained lots of weight that was... another one to add to the list
#but maybe i'm not used to it yet idk it's been quite a few years atp but idk?
#it just hasn't gotten easier to hear them call me ugly and fat (in a derogatory way) and make mean comments and shame me every other day
#like! it hurts so bad! why do you think it's funny!!!!!!!
#this doesn't include my mum bc (sadly) she understands what it's like to be shamed for being fat she wouldn't do it to me
#not like in a purposefully mean way at least
#tho she does do some insidious shit like always going 'there's this new EASY diet that TOTALLY works' or saying x health problem is probably
#due to my weight etc
#which like isn't good? doesn't help? still hurts me? but it's different bc i know it's not rooted in hating fat people/me being fat
#it's more like her own shit she went thru that she doesn't want me to go thru too and like yeah it's fucked up but i get it more than
#just outright saying i am disgusting for being fat lol
#like mh both suck but at least you're not joking about the fact even if i didn't eat i would be fine cause i'm so fat haha
#yeah. just. a lot.
#there's no escaping it i think the only way would be to move the fuck out and that would also help with uh. the misgendering thinly veiled
#homotransphobia abuse constantly having to put up w their fighting and sometimes fighting w them myself
#and the ableism and and and and
#basically this is lowkey hell like i've learned to live with it more or less but jesus it is extremely exhausting
#i just want out i've wanted out for years but every day i get closer to losing it
#there might be something potentially coming up but i have to wait til the end of the month to see if anything comes of it
#we'll see.. i rly hope i can rent this place idc if it's small idc if it'll suck most of my paycheck and i'll have to ask for my mum's help
#i just need to at least try and get away cause like. i get to august every year and my father is absolutely impossible to deal with
#and i know my mum feels the same and i hate leaving her ajnd my brother too but like
#at some point i have to think about myself cause god what use am i even to them when i'm a ghost of myself in this house
#it's just shit for everyone plus if i really get to rent that place it's literally IN FRONT of my family's apartment i could still help out
#but at least i wouldn't LIVE with them i wouldn't feel so fucking trapped
#whatever. bad bad bad day physical pain wise too
7 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
onyourowndaisymae
let's get this fuckin bread
f-l-o-r-e-s-c-e-e-r
Winter
sleepwalk3rs
Bored To Death
need2grow
need2grow
tamilmoviereview
Tamil Movie Review