#like she literally lives and breathes her internalized misogyny because its all shes surrounded by

[phntmeii]

it will never not cause me to lose my mind that Alicent is the product of her environment to a tee that she actively limits herself to boost the men in her life because she's been taught that that is her role in life and when presented with the fact that she is entrapped, she literally already knows and doesn't want to escape. She finds so much comfort in her internalized misogyny and that's why she can't trust Rhaenyra and her reign over her sons. She literally finds comfort in the abuse she's lived in all her life because she has predictability on her side. Her abuse can hurt her all it wants but she KNOWS it will happen which means she can prepare for it. She knows her expectations and knows what will happen even if she doesn't want it to happen but can't say the same to a potentially women-led environment so she actively puts down Rhaenyra as a result even if its to uplift her firstborn son who is the embodiment of everything she suffered through. Aegon is her reminder and her own personal failure because rather than mold him into something she would've found comfort in, he's more of the same. Alicent will regrettably always be that little girl forced into marriage at a young age who is scared of the world around her.

#alicent still is responsible for her actions as a grown woman but fuck it hurts how she cant break out of this environment #like she literally lives and breathes her internalized misogyny because its all shes surrounded by #i have so much pity for alicent it hurts #i wish rhaenyra could explain in the strict manner of a queen but the comfort of a friend how she doesn't have to live that way #asoiaf #hotd #hotd alicent #alicent hightower #queen alicent #house of the dragon