#like that and literally just yesterday i heard that i didnt get this grad scheme i really wanted even though i only got positive feedback

[himbo-harrington]

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#i can hear my parents whispering about me in the kitchen and complaining that like i don't have a car or a job or a credit score and shit #like that and literally just yesterday i heard that i didnt get this grad scheme i really wanted even though i only got positive feedback #from the company throughout the whole application process and its so fucking disheartened #and mum keeps being like 'at least you won't be 6 hours away now!' like thats any kind of consolation #i dont give a fuck if it was 6 hours away it was doing something i really wanted to do was very generously paid and i would have really #enjoyed it and its so fucking annoying that theyre acting like im doing nothing and applying to nothing and going nowhere #when they know thats bs and ive applyed to so many jobs and grad schemes and either get rejected or ignored and im sorry that i dont want #to work a shitty minimum wage job and get a shitty little car and have to toot toot around hating it?? #like im sorry for wanting something better than that?? #and all you see is me here 'doing nothing' #whats the fucking point #whats the fucking point of it all