#like. i know why (Those Batfam Fans™ who dont recognize kon as a character rather than an accessory to tim) but STILL

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god. sometimes i think about rebirth kon and how incredibly fucked up his entire situation is. and sometimes i want to play in that space and explore it but the thing is like... its pretty much impossible to actually resolve any of his tragedy there unless its just entirely a story about grief and i ... listen stories about grief absolutely have their place but i'm a softie and i like hurt/comfort and angst with happy endings. i can't do it.

like, genuinely. how fucked up would it be to spend most of your life suicidal until you actually die, and then a scant few years later - after you've been ripped away from everyone you know and love, and you haven't been able to go home but you've been aching for them, enough to persuade a woman to name her unborn child for your grandmother - you find out that they all forgot you. not voluntarily, but they did. and now they do remember you, but they also remember a timeline where you simply never existed. your most formative baseline thought patterns have always been ones where you're okay with killing yourself, and now you know everyone you've been yearning to return to remembers you, but also remembers a time when you simply did not exist, when they never knew you, when you weren't even an afterthought because you were never there.

would that not be completely and utterly horrific?

you know how kon has always been one giant existential crisis after another? haha yeah wow that sure has NOT changed. the only difference as far as i can tell is that so far, nothing in rebirth is acknowledging it. (possible exception to superboy man of tomorrow - at least the setup includes him outright stating he's not doing great and feels unnecessary, but we'll see where it goes!)

#shoutout to the one issue of yj19 where konbart talk about how fucked up this all is at least a bit #but its sooo fucked up and evil that pretty much all the fandom talks about wrt kon in rebirth era is just OOH HES JEALOUS ABT TIM/BER. #like. i know why (Those Batfam Fans™ who dont recognize kon as a character rather than an accessory to tim) but STILL #girl he has bigger fish to fry lmao #its just tragic bc *i* dont want to write anything about this it makes me SAD and idk how to resolve any of it #but sometimes i Do want to see a really good aching bittersweet character study #but no one has written that for me. sad. fucked up :/ #rimi talks #kon #ive just been thinkin abt this sooo much since smot1 dropped the toher day. augh