#listen tho — Merrill having a bit of an accidental superiority complex around being Dalish is something that is so rarely addressed

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"I'm tired, I'm not gonna stay up" has turned into "there is no time, there is only Merrill"

#OOC / HOLLY. #I'm putting myself to bed I DO need to sleep #listen tho — Merrill having a bit of an accidental superiority complex around being Dalish is something that is so rarely addressed #but so good to explore and have challenged #she doesn't even realize it's there #which does allow it to get ugly in her worst moments #i.e. if you're on a rivalry path with her and do Feynriel's quest in Act II she has some nasty things to say #I don't think that's who she is at heart but we see this ingrained kind of 'Dalish ways are the true ways' attitude in other places #it's the sort of thing that if left unchallenged will fester #going back to Feynriel — she doesn't talk that way if she's on a friendship path and is in a better place mentally + emotionally #she also doesn't talk that way in Act I where she's bout ready to throw hands with Vincento #so it's a matter of like 'here's a thing I was raised with and have never known differently.' #'if I go down a bad path and don't challenge it it will fester and eat me from the inside' #she does think of all elves as her people / part of the People but she was definitely raised to believe that #their way is the only way to be a True Elf and that the People have lost their way #that the only way they'll get the Creators to hear their prayers again is if they prove they haven't forgotten everything #and are 'true elves' whatever that means #which also something she has to challenge. like what does that even mean what does it look like etc #I'm veering off topic tho #everything circles back to the eluvian and how there is a I suppose religious motivation to her conviction #GOOD NIGHT see y'all tomorrow