#look I have to want to inflict some pain on Arcee as well

[quetzalpapalotl]

Ok, so Impactor/Arcee, an idea Van gave me. There is so much that could be done here because they're both like warriors who think they have no place outside of battle and the best thing they can do is people's dirty work. They don't display care is ways that are socially expected or easily understood. They're not great at communicating emotion.

And you know how Arcee keeps trying to connect with people she feels she has an understanding with only to get cut short? Well, Impactor wouldn't do that to her because Impactor has no reason to. They would click and Impactor wouldn't feel any need to distance himself from Arcee because he already has a negative self value, even if he thinks that Arcee is a monster he also thinks he himself is a monster to whatever. And despite everything Impactor does allow himself a sense of camaderie with fellow Wreckers, so yeah, they would Connect. This would make Arcee very happy, not that she would call them friends, but they get each other, you see.

The thing were it gets good, is that Arcee is not only trying to change by nothing but her own will, she's actually succeding. She's trying to create a better world and changing her tactics for it, even if she still relies in her battle skills, even if said world has no place for her. And this is was would thick Impactor off. Impactor has a very bleak view of the world, and most of all himself. He thinks he's fundamentally incapable of changing. Looking at Arcee doing just that would make him think that they aren't alike after all. Or worse, it may make him confront the fact that if Arcee can change maybe he can too, which is not allowed because despite how absolutely miserable Impactor is, there is something comfortable in this hopelessness.

So either, Impactor drags Arcee down him with, or (if he actually cares for her) distances himself from her. Arcee is better off without him, she's not like him and she can't be who she wants to be if she clings to Impacto.r. Impactor is just funfamentally bad. Not that he would tell her is for her own good or anything. This would be yet another rejection for Arcee, but what's juicy about it is that it would be for the exact opposite as usual. Impactor wouldn't distance himself because she thinks Arcee is a crazy murderer, but because she think she's just way better than him. He recognizes Arcee for the complex person she is with a lot of potential for good and goes "nope". Also, not that Impactor would consider how much this would affect Arcee because he doesn't think he has any value as a recipient of affection. This is not at all helped by Arcee's struggles to verbalize her emotions.

#it would be a mess #it compels me #look I have to want to inflict some pain on Arcee as well #psspspsps Squiggle look #quetzal rambles tf