#love languages! perceptions! the way we influence each other! everything unsaid n unknown!

[noxtivagus]

there is honestly sm i wna ramble about rn ( 〃．．)

#🌙.rambles #in a good way though!!!! #i wna do so muchhhh #in particular though rn relating to everyone i know #i wna say so much but honestly i'm Too Shy #i try though. to at least convey even a little of what i think n feel! #I GET EMBARRASSED THOUGH BCS I EITHER SAY TOO MUCH OR TOO LITTLE #AAAHSJFJSJFJSKKGS >< #while almost always i may end up being unintentionally elusive n secretive #idk if elusive's even the right word rn in this context #but goddamn i realize when i'm honest. i'm typically a lot more direct than most ppl usually are !?! #bruh i really wonder how others' perception of me is like. how it varies per person n the reasons behind that #me on twt vs tumblr! irl if you're my friend or not! i find it funny how i have at least one person that overlaps in those aspects #i have apollo in almost all aspects of my life! #most irls that i'm not close with that only know me on insta #AAAA WAIT I HAVE SM TO WRITE ABT . deep late night convos w the ppl i love! tonight it is apollo! #god ppl r so interestjng n i really want to learn everything abt the ppl i love #I CANT WAIT SM THOUGHTS #love languages! perceptions! the way we influence each other! everything unsaid n unknown! #god i have so much to write abt now that i have my renewed energy but i'll rest first this weekend #i'll just try to be as normal as i usually am! with everyone n whenbit comes to everything #meaning as naturally kind. affectionate. loving. caring. as i usually end up being #SOB WAIT . i really get embarrassed though w irls :^) but i do those for everyone so why shld anything change here. #i think. that's how others might perceive me i think. idk looking out for others comes naturally to me 😭😭 #some impostor syndrome maybe....? doubt! but no doubt on my bday shoo shoo im gna do my best n go SLEEP first #i have so much wishes but i'll keep them all to myself. i'll do my best to achieve what of them i can but #some of them. i can only hope that one day #yeah. BUT BEFORE ALL THAT J SHLD SLEEP #sm to do n i've shared parts to different people. hfdjsffadkl one at a time i'll try my best 😭😭