#lowkey wish i never became a czennie

[lee-minhoe]

NA JAEMINNNN

• [fav thing about them]

cheesily enough I'd say everything, but yk how he's just there without doing much and that's like his thing but I just love it when he's really active and goofy as if he just had his namericano and everyone's just rolling on the floor because of the really weird but funny jokes that he cracks and he's laughing so hard to the point that he's crying too and you just realise it's a happy and memorable moment right there. Like that one part from hello future live where he's enacting a squid(? was it)... I just blabbered but times like this warm my heart

• [when you knew they became ur bias]

he wasn't my bias right away but no kpop idol ever is neways when I fell deeper into the nct rabbit hole and i noticed a lot of similarities between his personality and mine own and how he just gives everyone around him soooo much love but never asking for anything back like he's just there silently pouring his love for everyone and the bias list in my head just updated itself with his name just shining (like his smile) right on top

• [fav looks on them]

THAT RECENT GLITCH MODE TEASER OUTFITS OMG and universe leather jacket outfit and hello future mv outfit and chilling jalapeno version outfit and his cat hoodie and his classic pink-purple-green colour Celine tee and and that brown shirt outfit of his from nct dream cinema and his work it suit outfit and that one hot sauce mv outfit and button-up outfits and white tee outfits okay I'll stop-

• [fav verse/choreo]

do i really have to spell it out? do i really? JAEMIN BOOM AND GO VERSE SUPREMACY plus his verse the song of my life ANL (underrated queen) and a number of others but mostly bye my first, quiet down, maw (heck yes) and ofc from work it (his love for czennies>>>>>>)

As for choreo again, Go and Boom choreo supremacy, or the chorus part of exo's growl cover and also the Pennywise move from we go up and there's this one move he does in his starting verse in ridin where he like twists his hand and then points it backward during "everyone sit back" (https://youtu.be/M9kctl7bSu8 at 0:20) idk how to describe it but the first time i saw it I lost my breath (also taking into acc that it was the song that got me into dream but yes)

• [your wish for them]

a really amazing coffee lol, but in all seriousness i'd love to see him in more videos like just do it (sm pls give us more episodes pls) or a thriller drama some day (sm *puppy eyes* pls) and a cover song pls pls pls AND OMG more songs like countdown 3, 2, 1 where he can do a fast rap because his verse from the bridge of that song just kills me everytime but I also want more vocal performances from him because his voice in my youth or anl just gives me life

• [random]

i love him. very much okay? like "i see a 1 sec clip of him smiling at it makes my day" kind of love. like "his voice helps me fall asleep" kind of love. or "his lives and bubbles make me feel warm" kind of love. i cannot physically or verbally explain the extent (hence this long para) but it lowkey breaks my heart when it hits me at times that he might be a bit underrated. pls don't come at me, maybe it's just me but there are times when I feel like he's overshadowed in some places and underappreciated by fans (and i don't wanna sound rude by not respecting their choices or biases) but there's just a small part of me which thinks that way. but as long as he's happy and enjoying his time i really don't care about anything else cause, with every ounce of honesty in me, his smile makes my day. so, imma say it again.

I love na jaemin.

oh my god i smiled so much reading this post and your fav looks?? i know exactly which ones you're talking about LOL

that part in ridin where he points backwards YES YES i love that part too 😞 and the way everyone parts for na jaemin in that choreo ahhhhhhh. so good. SAME the chorus part of their growl cover is sooooo good i thought it was just me (https://youtu.be/gf6kbW0SgMQ?t=68 also he looks great in this outfit lol)

i also love when he doesnt do much and then he cracks a joke and everyone is on the floor laughing 🥺 the part in the hello future live where he was imitating a stingray IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING EVER he is SO CUTE!!!!

i too love how he gives the people around him so much love but he doesnt seem to expect anything in return, and he does things without complaint <33 he'll cook for the dreamies (and he might "complain" about it but he still does it) and makes sure they eat first 😭

also yes.............his rap in countdown 321 i literally gasped when i first heard it, i love that part so much he went so hard and it kills me every time as well. i also super love his part in my youth, his lazy rap in his deep voice and when he harmonizes with renjun - literally my fav part of all time (my youth is also one of my top songs ever)

im sure everyone thinks their bias is underrated in some way but i think a lot of people see him for his looks (and of course i love jaemin center) but i think there seems to also be a lot more to him like his sweet personality (at least given what he shows to us), as you mentioned!!

and agreed, his smile is the best!!! 😍

send me an ask for bias loving hours <3 (honestly open anytime)

#answered #thank you so much for sending<3333 #i very much enjoyed reading this #!!!!! #i apologize to everyones dash for this long post but oh well #🙃

[dojae-huh]

I've been a Czennie since Do addition to 127. Tho I'm not a fan from the very beginning, I've seen their older content and still watch new ones. I can't observe as well as you, but I consider myself having seen enough changes in JaeDo through the yrs.

Do became my bias right away. His vocals and wits appealed to me first. Watching more content and I've noticed how caring, sincere, passionate and goal-oriented he is. That's when I realized I'm in this fandom for life. Do can talk a lot, but never speaks too much, also making sure others get the spotlight. That's another thing I like about him. I like this kind of leadership. He's efficient, but considerate.

But you're absolutely right that Do's ambitions and angry sides (for laugh) came out more often in the older content. I still remember the old days my irl friends and I would talk and laugh about Do's angry bunny mode, even before discovering your blog. These days, I'd say Do hasn't lost himself, but he has become more aware than ever about fans loving aegyo and their other expectations of him. The filial son, very attentive idol who always gives fans updates. His popularity saw huge growth after Cherry Bomb and moreso after Boss. His pcs and merch weren't expensive or hard to trade at all back before 2018. Now he comes second in popularity after Jae in Korea and several Asian countries, beating even Tae and Mark who I expected to stay more popular for as long as NCT grows. Do has a good amount of fans outside Asia too. I'll never know Do enough to judge, but I wonder if that puts pressure on him. This is Do still being the smart and considerate person that he already is and he seems to want to interact often out of his own will too (while not giving away his own secrets and too personal thoughts, thankfully), but I'm also worried he has to conform to what the fans want. Like, what if he's rlly tired or doesn't want to do aegyo sometimes, but he still does it? Do keeps up with what the fans talk about him too and fans hype up his cute side. Ok, he's cute and kind. But idk if it gets too much. That reflected in what Dozennies asked Do to do during fansign. So much aegyo content. Other members got these requests too, but Do's among the top imo. Fan expectations play a huge role in image shaping and most of stan twt overhyping his cute, "babie" side or acting up when Do's silent just for a few days made me uncomfortable, tbh. I'm once again saying that I love his cuteness and am thankful for all the updates too, but Do's more than that. And it's perfectly fine if he wants to disappear from the internet for some time. I just want him to be able to do what he wants without worries (if he's concerned about it, that is).

Jae has always been my #2 fave after Do and I've shipped JaeDo early on, but I didn't rlly consider Jae my bias at first. I remember I started out loving his vocals and wits too (I have a thing for intellectuals and vocalists and Jae's more than visual, working very hard to earn his main vocalist spot). I also find JaeDo a force to be reckon with. Their vocals and brains are so sexy tgt lmao But later, Jae kept growing on me and before I knew it, I've adopted him as a bias. Perhaps mainly due to Ennana content. He has his own gentle, mellow way and he's a simple and chill guy with depth and passion. Idk if I made sense, but that's how I see him and made me fall for him.

I feel even before the scandal happened, Jae had already growing more lowkey as each year passed. He's become less of a clingy puppy maknae than 2015-2016, but I absolutely agree that he was still more open in 2017-2019 than now. He has to build a wall around himself and with his close relationship with his family which conveniently lives in Seoul, I don't blame him if he wants to retreat from the ssng-infested dorm to his comfort zone (his fans are prolly the most unhinged too, mostly in for his looks, while I wish Valentines would pay more attention to his musical talents and personality) or wants alone time. But at the end of the day, I still want to see Singer and Artist Jae and his future solo aside, I hope he can stay happy and be part of NCT for many years to come. I fully believe in his passion (Jae's own consistencies in interview and video content aside, the other neos are always praising him about this), but he has also mentioned before about the perfect image that pressured him. There must have been disheartening moments. Maybe his sns break and unbothered side can do some good for him. Let him let go sometimes, so he can recharge before this comeback, which will require him to be more active.

Whew, that's long. JaeDo time at last. I started out shipping JaeDo for fun and never believed in my previous ships. Korean guys seem ok with skinship in general and K-pop idols are put in a spot they have to express their feelings for groupmates or do fanservice, so I find it hard to be sure which is romantic and which is platonic. But JaeDo is the first ship that intrigued me. I admit I'm still in conflicting emotions like some of the previous anons, whether they are rlly dating or not. Or are they still in crushing on e/o stage. Or there's no romantic feelings involved atm, but they keep making me wonder if there's something. You clarified about their securities and other neos' reactions and I agree, but i'm still trying to connect everything. 2019 to now just have been very weird and confusing. I've shipped them from 2017. I've witnessed 2017 tension and 2018 lovey-dovey period real time and I've watched puppy Jae from 2015-2016. But 2019 moments and after, particularly 2020 divorce, caught my attention the most.

JaeDo dynamic is too weird to overlook. They go up and down like crazy lol I'm prolly too loyal and biased to jump ships too, but I just can't see DoTae's deep friendship, Do flustered by Johnny, and Do babying younger neos as romantic. Jae is close to some of the neos, but I can't sense anything romantic. Not even with Yuta and Winwin. On the side of Do ships, Johnny and younger neos (Woo and Jeno in particular) have other neos they seem closer too. I think DoTae are e/o's most important neo, but dare I say, JaeDo give off vibes that make me wonder if they are e/o's number one too, albeit in a different way from DoTae's relationship. There are times I feel JaeDo have drifted apart. They just seem tense around e/o sometimes and Do never hugs Jae with wide smile. They sometimes don't talk about e/o or don't include e/o in answers. But then there are the coffee cart, out of the blue hugs and touches, Jae's comments on Do's live and Do's reactions, Do trying to act indifferent but noticing Jae's emotions and reacting to Jae first most of the times even when it's not his fault (like hitting or chasing him), Jae's quiet or smug enthusiasm about Do (he usually stays on the side these days instead of leading the teasing but when Jae attacks, the content is golden). And the way they talk about e/o in content makes me think they still seem to know e/o well (plus other neos' reactions in some of the content).

I don't expect JaeDo dynamic to be like others, but they are too weird to not notice and make me go ???

Thank you for the long post, anon, it was an interesting read.

JaeDo do a good job at keeping their relationship safe, confusing even long-time fans and shippers. Good for them!

Doyoung. During his lives Do does fanservice in a pretty straightforward way. "Should I put on the glasses? OK, screenshot time, I'll do weird faces for memes. You want me to unbutton my shirt? No, not today. I’ve started the vlive because I’m still wearing the musical make up and I wanted to show it to you." So he still is "real" with the fans but there is still a problem him being afraid to show his real opinions/temper and playing the weak cute guy during programmes. It looks like after the success of MAW he mostly dropped it, thankfully. He allows to be hyper much more often.

Doyoung needs to give love back. As you said, he is pressured with the fans' love. It's not just cold math (there is an element of it, I'm sure), Doyoung feels the need to give back. The only times he really dissapears is when something happens and he is mad at the fans (Jae's scandal being the prime example). Doyoung is happy when everyone in his group is happy. And his fans fall under his responsibility.

I knew a person who juggled a lot of stuff: supervision of a station, solving everyday's problems, group relationships, studying for PhD, a part time job. That person survived on 4-5 hours a day for months. And when I asked why not give up some of the responsibilities or just not care too much, the answer was "I can't". That person had Doyoung's brain type and gave me a good understanding of this urge to do everything by oneself.

Doyoung's is not sacrificial though, if he does a vlive at 3 a.m., it means he still can do it, it's his promise with himself to finish all the tasks on his to do list for the day. After it he can sleep soundly.

Why do you think Do's popularity increased after these two songs? Exposition? Or enought time has passed since his addition to 127?

Jaehyun's popularity is mainly due to his looks. So his absence doesn't influence their number as long as he appears in magazines and commercials. As for the fans who like him for his personality or voice, they are understanding and learn to be content with the rare posts. Afterall, Jaehyun writes very warmly, doesn't skip anniversaries and talks about himself in interviews rather honestly.