#madeline's last monologue?? that shit was PERSONAL

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Loving insanity pt. 5 {{Jerome Valeska x Reader}}

Author Note: this chapter is all about Jerome because why the hell not. And of course here comes the moment everyone is waiting for *drum role* the murder of Lila Valeska. This are going to get intense and you get to see things through Jerome’s eyes.💜💜💜👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

Length: long

Requested: request/collaboration

Warnings: murder, strong language

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It had been a few days since Jerome had seen you. You became busy with personal things and promised that the two of you would get together tonight.

He was getting ready to go when his mother walked in.

“We are moving towns again.”

“W-what?”

“We will be back in 3-4 years.”

“Mom I’m sorry but I am staying in Gotham with Y/N.”

“Like hell you are. Tell that bitch that you leaving.”

“Don’t you fucking call her that.”

“That bitch can go cry to her daddy and in a few weeks she’ll move on to be someone else’s little whore. She won’t wait for you. She doesn’t really love you. No one will every really love you. Now pack your things you fucking ungrateful shit.”

She pushed to far. Jerome growled and put his hands on her neck. He started to choke her. She begged him to stop. But he didn’t want to. He was going to kill her. He didn’t care what became of him.

He dragged her kicking and screaming while he held a knife. He brought her by the river and threw her to the ground. He put his foot on her throat.

“You have mistreated me, screamed at me, hit me, insulted me, hurt me, gave my girl nightmares, insulted my girlfriend and so much more. But most of all you nagged and nagged and nagged and I’m fucking done with it. I was fine with you being a whore mother. Even a drunken whore. But you stepped over the god damn fucking line when you became a nagging drunken whore.”

Jerome pulled the knife out and it shined in the moonlight.

“I’d say go to hell mom but I sure as hell don’t want to see you there!!!!!”

He let out a laugh. Not a normal laugh. No. It was the laugh of a maniac. A madman. And that’s exactly what he had become. In this moment he was no longer the sweet and innocent Jerome. No. He was a Maniac version of his former self.

He stabbed her. He watched as the blood gushed out of the wound. He smiled a Cheshire smile. After all these years his mother got what she deserved. He laughed again and again. What a rush it was. He dropped her body and laughed as he walked away.

“THATS WHAT YOU DESERVE WHORE!!!”

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After a long day and a long interrogation Jim looks at everyone in the interrogation room and says.

“Everyone leave I want to have one on one with Jerome.”

Jim watched as everyone left until it was only Jim and Jerome. Jim looked at him and rubbed his temples.

“You know I thought you were a good kid. You made Y/N so happy. You treated her with respect and she really cares about you. She is a sweet girl who wants to work with GCPD at Arkham. She wants to help people. So I’m curious to how she will take finding out that you, her boyfriend, murdered someone which is the exact opposite of helping people.”

Jim had a bit of venom in his voice. He was angry. Very angry.

“So Jerome how do you think she will take it?”

Jerome had his head down as everyone left the room, it wasn’t until the mention of Y/N that he snapped up and gazed at Jim as he spoke. With every word that left his mouth, a new emotion ran through Jerome. If he was being honest, he had no idea how she would take it, he hoped she would still love him and understand…Jerome begins to have an inner monologue with himself

‘She knew your mother after all, everything will be fine, she’ll still love me…she will understand why I did what I did…. No… she won’t understand and she probably shouldn’t even know about it’

Jerome can feel Jim stare at him due to the various changes of his facial features as he is trying to process through his thoughts

He finally decides that he knows what it is he needs to do.

He looks at Jim

“You and I both know what she will more than likely think, no matter how bad I wish it weren’t true! She’ll probably want nothing to do with me, if we’re being realistic here. The thing is, Jimbo, neither of us are never going to know what she thinks for sure, because she’s never going to find out! This is my way of protecting her, I don’t care what you have to tell her…tell her I took off with the circus, tell her whatever you have to, or tell her nothing at all…don’t tell her this, it’ll break her heart! It’ll be hard enough living without her, as I assume I’m going away for a very long time *gives Jim a look secretly hoping he’ll tell him that he isn’t putting him in arkham but Jerome knows that is just ridiculous to think* ah, I figured as much *laughs then stares Jim hard in the face* if you won’t do this for me, please do it for her…the thought of hurting her breaks my heart”

Jerome leans back in his seat and turns grim once more, a complete different side than what Jim just witnessed from the ginger circus boy, the boy that is dating his beloved sweet daughter.

As Jerome spoke, his malicious tone was a stark difference from the seemingly optimistic words that escaped his lips.

“I guess we’re done here, Jimbo…take me away to my new eventful place of entertainment and whimsical enjoyment”

Jim rubbed his forehead and sighed.

“No the problem is that she would ignore this. That is what pisses me off. She always tries to see the good in people even when there is none. She will try to do the same for you no matter how hard it is for her.”

Jerome felt a blow to his chest as Jim spoke. He knew Jim was right. He knew deep down that Y/N being kept in the dark about what actually happened would be far worse. Jerome is just scared of what she may think of him…

Would she look at him differently?

Would she treat him differently?

More importantly, would she be scared of him?

The thought of the one person that he truly loves in this world fearing him physically makes him sick. But, the fact that she is the one person in this world that he can depend on, means that he can’t be selfish with her, no matter how scared he may be. Jerome knows what it feels like to be abandoned, he’ll be damned if he lets his doll face think that he has done that to her.

“I know you’re right here. Between you and me, and trust me if you try to tell anybody what I’m about to say, I’ll simply deny it Jimbo *laughs* I’m scared…I’m scared of losing her! She is the only person that I care about…the only person I truly trust. I refuse to be selfish with her! I may be scared of her reaction, but making her feel like I abandoned her is far worse…I won’t do it! I know I’m probably your least favorite person right now, go figure, but I really do love Y/N. So, I’m asking you, man to man, what the hell do I do?”

Jim looked at him. He knew Jerome cared about Y/N. And at this point he had no other choice but to help.

“I’ll help you. When Y/N was 4 years old her mother went missing and is still missing to this day. I know what it’s like to loose someone you love and I refuse to let her go through that. That is why I will help you. Look for now I won’t mention anything to her. I won’t bring it up unless I have no other option. How you can help is stay out of her view at Arkham. She has been assigned to the right wing of Arkham. If you cell anywhere near a male named Blake Morison or are ever around Allison Riley then don’t make yourself noticeable. Those are two of her friends there and I’ll be damned if she doesn’t stay around them. And if you ever see a Nurse named Anastasia Folly or a therapist named Madeline Fox then Y/N won’t be far away. Those are two of her best friends from Gotham University’s Med Sector.”

Jim sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

“The only problem is that a doubt your dissapearence will go unnoticed so what you can also do is write a letter to her about you having to leave and I’ll set it on the kitchen counter. I hate lying to her but it will be better for her in the long run.”

Jim handed Jerome a piece of paper and a pen.

“And make it quick. They are already expecting you up at Arkham.”

Jerome took the pen and paper, his cheerful demeanor returning as he fell into a fit of giggles.

“Thanks, Jimmy, you’re a real lifesaver! I owe you big time. Whatever you want, say the word, it’s yours *laughter ensues*”

As he stares at the blank sheet of paper, his laughter dissolves ‘what the hell am I supposed to say to her?’

Almost as if on cue, everything he needs to say comes right to him.

•••

Doll face,

I’ll never forget the day I met you, you were so sweet and carefree, I guess I was back then as well! Then, the second time I met you, my heart completely stopped, you were so damn gorgeous! The more I got to know you, the more I saw the difference between you and I. You were always happy with your optimistic outlook on life, whereas being around you was my positivity. I guess that could be blamed on our different upbringings. I knew I had to have you in my life, doll, because without you I really don’t have a lot going for me. You’re probably reading this and thinking 'why are you writing me this stupid letter, Jerome?’ Well, doll, some things have come up and I have to go away for a while. Please know that leaving you is the absolute last thing I want to do, but unfortunately I must do it for now. I just want you to know that it is because of you that I aim to be a better person. You are the one person in this entire world that I care about and trust with my life. I love you more than I ever could have imagined and I will always be thinking of you! I know right about now, you’re probably crying and as fucked up as it may sound I’ve always thought you were pretty when tears streamed down your face, but cheer up doll face…I’ll be seeing you again, don’t you worry your pretty little head about that!

With laughs and kisses,

Your Ginger Menace

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To say that Jerome almost teared up writing this sop-fest of a letter was an understatement. There is no way that he’ll let good old Jimbo see him cry like that. His ego wouldn’t be ruined because his girlfriend’s dad watched him cry. He hands the folded up paper (with Y/N’s name written on the outside) and pen to Jim as he stares mischievously.

“Now, Jimbo…no peaking! It’s for your daughter’s eyes only”, he let out a huge cackle.

Jim put the letter in his pocket and grabbed Jerome’s arm before leading him out to the squad car ready to take him to Arkham.

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