#mashima did her so dirty after lost ages I will forever be mad about it

[happilychee]

thinking about ultear

ultear who's always had too much magic power. ultear who waits for ur to come back, who hopes and hopes. ur never comes, and ultear has a chilling realization that she might be an experiment forever. ultear who forges herself out of fire and pain, who learns time magic because it's the only thing that can keep up with her strength, because it's the only way she can think of seeing her mother again. ultear who loves her but resents her but loves her.

ultear who becomes a mother so, so slowly. she realizes what's happening when meredy starts going to her for advice, for magic training, for the most mundane things. ultear who doesn't stop meredy, who indulges the young girl. she doesn't know what meredy sees in her, but she doesn't say anything either.

ultear who restores tenrou island to its original state so that fairy tail can fight at their full power against grimoire heart. ultear who tries to kill herself so meredy won't have to. ultear who feels the ghost of her mother hug her as she pushes her to the surface of the water, who feels ur's presence as she promises to stay alive for meredy. she won't leave her daughter like her mother left her.

ultear who tries to atone for her crimes with meredy and jellal. ultear who gives crime sorcière her all. ultear who genuinely feels like she's making a difference, until she hears of the eclipse plan. until she wants to kill rogue cheney to prevent a horrible future from happening. ultear who thinks she hasn't changed at all, still cunning and ruthless and willing to kill anyone for her goals. ultear who thinks she doesn't deserve the kindness she's been shown by her comrades.

ultear who casts lost ages. ultear who gives up her magic, her time, her life. seven years ago, she would have left crocus for dead. now, ultear milkovich gives up everything to give her friends a fighting chance.

#I have so many thoughts about her #mashima did her so dirty after lost ages I will forever be mad about it #like. do meredy and jellal just never visit her??? what??? #lychee writes #fairy tail #ultear milkovich #meredy #jellal fernandes #fairy tail headcanons #fairy tail fanfic