#maybe im just stubborn and sentimental okay? maybe i just want to share the last good thing i have of him. even if he doesnt care anymore.

[tokyoteddywolf]

Urgh

I'm debating posting The Fic, the fixit for the Teal Mask arc of Pokémon Scarlet/Violet. I've already written a sort of self insert slash fix it for the main game, and I was working on the second part, the Kitakami first part.

See, the problem is the fact that me and the guy who edited/helped/has a main character in the story are... no longer friends, to put it plainly. Ended badly, too, which I regret, but not like there's much I can do about it.

So do I rename the character? Leave it to rot in my docs? Keep everything and finish and post it? I don't know. And I can't exactly ask him. Like I said. We ended it very badly, and I regret it some, but the damage is done with no way to fix it, so we shrug and move on with our lives.

But anyways, my main deal is I don't want to leave my lovely labor of love to stagnate in my Google docs. I want to finish and post it. I want to make the story mine again, since it was my idea in the first place. Regardless of dead rotting friendships still freshly murdered and cooling, burned bridges and all that.

I'm gonna leave a poll then, yall decide what I should do. But I do plan to finish that fic and post it to my AO3 account. Peace.

#poll #writing The Fic #pokemon #i debated it for a while honestly but im still not sure what to do #all i know is i do not want to let something petty ruin something i genuinely loved working on #as much as i loved him and as badly as we left things i still care about him. and that means i still care about the Fic. #i mean i still care. as much as i dont want to my stupid bleeding heart still goddamn cares because i can never let things go. #we may not be friends anymore and i know i said all the wrong things but its not like i can drop it in the garbage like it meant nothing. #i love this fic and i love the characters and i loved writing all of it and i just- leaving it to rot makes my heart hurt #i wanna finish it. so badly. not publishing it is just not an option. i worked so hard on it and maybe- #maybe im just stubborn and sentimental okay? maybe i just want to share the last good thing i have of him. even if he doesnt care anymore. #i highly doubt he'll even see this- probably has me blocked like Jay. no surprise. so ill let the poll decide.